That is the pride of life. Kiburi cha uzima!
Collins was like you but he eventually believed in God.
"I am a scientist and a believer, and I find no conflict between those world views.
As the director of the Human Genome Project, I have led a consortium of scientists to read out the 3.1 billion letters of the human genome, our own DNA instruction book. As a believer, I see DNA, the information molecule of all living things, as God's language, and the elegance and complexity of our own bodies and the rest of nature as a reflection of God's plan.
I did not always embrace these perspectives. As a graduate student in physical chemistry in the 1970s, I was an atheist, finding no reason to postulate the existence of any truths outside of mathematics, physics and chemistry. But then I went to medical school, and encountered life and death issues at the bedsides of my patients. Challenged by one of those patients, who asked "What do you believe, doctor?", I began searching for answers.
I had to admit that the science I loved so much was powerless to answer questions such as "What is the meaning of life?" "Why am I here?" "Why does mathematics work, anyway?" "If the universe had a beginning, who created it?" "Why are the physical constants in the universe so finely tuned to allow the possibility of complex life forms?" "Why do humans have a moral sense?" "What happens after we die?"
I had always assumed that faith was based on purely emotional and irrational arguments, and was astounded to discover, initially in the writings of the Oxford scholar C.S. Lewis and subsequently from many other sources, that one could build a very strong case for the plausibility of the existence of God on purely rational grounds. My earlier atheist's assertion that "I know there is no God" emerged as the least defensible. As the British writer G.K. Chesterton famously remarked, "Atheism is the most daring of all dogmas, for it is the assertion of a universal negative."
But reason alone cannot prove the existence of God. Faith is reason plus revelation, and the revelation part requires one to think with the spirit as well as with the mind. You have to hear the music, not just read the notes on the page. Ultimately, a leap of faith is required.
I had been experimenting my own life and thinking. At one time I decided not to prepare for exams and only prayed for God to give answers through revelation and was able to get 98% due to subjective markings of the teacher lakini kwenye facts pote nilikuwa napatia. This was in my very early days of school life I remember was in form two and infact that was the year I got an academic prize.
So when I speak of something with confidence some of this evidences are based on my own life experience and not any scientific published articles or other people's thinking in spirituality. Bado naendelea na experiment ya maisha yangu mwenyewe kwaajili yangu mwenyewe na wengine ambao watafaidika na my life experience. Nitaandika vitabu vingi sana before I die ili vifanyiwe testing maana vitahusu realy life experience kuhusu field yangu ya academic specialization na spirituality.
Mpaka sasa nime proove one can live without falling sick and if you meditate on Gods word you can solve many problems. When you come into perfect fellowship with hollyghost future is open to you and you would see things before they happen. You can even understand what other people are thinking in that particular time when you look at them while they perceive nothing from you. I am still going on with my own experiment this are longitudinal studies ambazo hazina economic incentive zozote wala academic credits just for my own fun.