mapenzi mabaya sana..mama
yangu aliniambia, akasema full moon kuwa makini kijana wangu
nikapuuzia..nikazama nilivyokuwa high school mzima mzima kwa mtoto mmoja
mkali kuliko wote jina lake salma..nilidhani nipo heaven, nikawa hata
siwezi kaa siku moja bila kumuona..then she came and cheated on me,
fcuking cheated on me! I was so fcuking faithful, I trusted her, gave
her everything..all i wanted was to be loved and she so deceptively said
she would love me forever..I was young, my first love..she dumped me
like no other, she dumped on the fcuking phone, she couldnt even face
me, she had the guilt because i was so fcuking innocent and it was a
shock which nearly led me to my early grave.
Sasa two years later, bado na recover and im still single..kila siku
nafikiria how and why she ever did that to me, what on earth did i do to
deserve that!? she has apologized..i replied i have forgiven her but we
are done..May be siku Mwenyezi Mungu atanipa na mimi wangu wa maisha
lakini one thing is for certain: Mimi na mdemu wa kibongo hapana tena. I
am done with them.
Salma made me single, salma made me hate relationships, salma made me
not to love, i love my mum mostly, no one else. Salma found me innocent,
now she turned me into some kind of emotionless player, because
whenever i tell any lady i love her..I lie. Deep down i know its not
right, but my brains come first and it protects my heart..my lies are
the shield.
Will I ever open my heart again- probably not.