Sina uhakika kama hii ni kimasihara ila ngoja niwaletee ivoivo tuu
-Daaah sijui nianzaje, ila ipo hv kuna siku nilikuwa lonely sana, stress nyingi mno....nikasema inabidi ntafute namna ya kujichangamsha
-Nkawasha TV, nkachomeka flash ili niangalie movie yeyote ile nipate burudani, ila nilikuwa nmeshaziangalia zote
-nikawaza tena, nifanye nn mm binadamu QuentinTarantino nipoteze mawazo haya na hizi huzuni zimekuwa nyingi sana (na wanasemaga ukiwa na stress jaribu kujichanganya na watu)
-nikawaza tena, niende wapi mie nipate company ya watu??? mm ni mpenzi wa movies and cinema na ni mpenzi wa sana wa bahari
-nikakumbuka movie nilioisubiria kwa hamu sana imetoka(ilihairishwa Mara kwa Mara due to covid-19) nazungumzia movie ya "THE LAST DUEL" by one of my favourite director Ridley Scott😊
-bac nikajikusanya na kuenda mlimani city kuicheki, ila nkawaza maybe nmtafute mwana yeyote nkaangalie nae, itakuwa poa zaidi, ila kila nnaye mpigia anasema yuko mbali au yuko busy, bac nkasema haina nomah....nimawaza tena au nimtafute demu yeyote anisindikize ili nisiwe mpweke huko niendako, ila nikakumbuka mademu wanasumbua wakati wa kuangalia movie maswali mengi hadi mtu unashindwa kuenjoy movie, nkajiambia piga chini hayo mawazo nenda mwenyew jikaze tuu kiumeni.....
-Bac nkaenda nkaangalia, ilikuwa ni film nzuri sana, ilishoisha nikatoka nje, sasa kwa ile baridi ya mule ndani na kukodoelea screen kwa muda mrefu, bichwa likaanza kuuma bhana, nikajiambia mbona nmeongeza matatizo sasa badala ya kupunguza nmeyaongeza
-nikawaza kurudi home ila Kila nikitaka niende home moyo unasita, kwasababu home Niko mwenyew tuu na wahenga walisema "ukiwa na stress usipende kukaa mwenyew"
-nkaona jambo la hekima ni kuenda baharini(ufukweni namaanisha) ule upepo wa bahari unasaidia kutuliza akili na kukupunguzia mawazo huku nikitafakari makuu ya uumbaji, ndo maana napenda kuenda ufukweni
-kwa stress zile nkasema kuenda mwenyew ufukweni itakuwa uongo, nkamkumbuka rafiki angu kipenzi Suzanna (jina la uongo), suzanna ana story nyingi na ni mchangamfu sana,ilibidi ntafute mtu atakaye nichangamsha sio mm nmchangamshe yy, bac nkampigia Simu, nikamuuliza kama anaweza akanisindikiza baharini akakubali, nkamsubiri tukaenda wote
-tulivofika tukatafuta sehemu tukakaa, tukapiga story nkaanza kuchangamka mixer ule upepo wa bahari na Yale mawimbi ya bahari, stress zikapungua, nkaanza kujiona na mm mtu....
-story nyingi sana za kuchekesha na kusisimua nikawa nmesahau kama nilikuwa na huzuni hii leo
-Jua likaanza kuzama taratibu nkaanza kuhuzunika tena kwasababu muda wa kuondoka umekaribia na mm sikutaka niondoke maana alinichangamsha sana, bac muda ukafika akasema anataka aondoke, bac nkambembeleza pale tubakibaki kidogo akakubali, then baada ya muda flani ivi nkamwona ana amka yuko kweny mood ya kusepa na sikuweza kumshawishi abaki tena kidogo
-Bac tukaondoka maeneo Yale tukaanza kutafuta usafiri, ila nikawa namwambia mm staki kuenda home nipo lonely sana na home hakuna mtu...
-kwa mshangao mkubwa akajibu na kusema "bac kama hutaki kwenda kwenu, twende home kwetu hakuna mtu wazazi wamesafiri"
-nkamkodolea macho then nkamuuliza "ntalala wapi"??
-Akajibu "kuna chumba cha kaka angu, utalala humo" hapo sasa nikawa sina sababu ya kukataa...
-nkashangaa hilo jibu sana na nikawa nimeduwaa kama bwege sina la kujibu
-akauliza tena "umekubali au"??
-kwasababu nilikuwa nna stress na yy ndo anaye nichangamshaga nkwambia "haina nomah" bac tukatafuta usafiri tukaenda...
-lakini njiani nilikuwa nna mawazo sana...
What if akinitaka kimapenzi?Itakuwaje??
What if wazaz wake au ndugu zake wakastukiza kuja???wakitukuta itakuwaje???
What if majirani wao wakaniona nae then wakawapigia simu wazazi wake???
-BAC PALE NKAANZA KUJUTA KUMKUBALIA NA STRESS ZINGINE ZKAONGEZEKA😭😭😭
-bac kwa sababu aliniona nna huzuni akanzisha story ila mm nilikuwa najibu "ndio" tuu....
hata angeuliza.........."NIGGA U GAY"?? nngejibu "ndio" tuu aisee😅😅(jokes)
-Bac tukafika, nikakaribishwa ndani akanikaribisha kinywaji ilikuwa ni soda ile nadhani, nikakataa nikwambia sinywagi soda
-akanikaribisha chakula ilikuwa ni wali nyama na mboga za majani, nikwambia toa hizo nyama niachie huo wali na mboga za jamani, mm situmiagi nyama
-Akazidi kunishangaa tuu, akauliza "mbona kila kitu hutumii"?? Nkamwambia " nilishawahi kukwambia hayo yote labda umesahau tuu"
-Tulifika saa 2 ila tulipiga story mpaka saa4 akasema amechoka anataka akalale, bac mm nkaelekezwa room yangu ntakapolala ilipo, kabla ya kulala nikaenda kuoga kwanza then niliporudi nikajaribu kulala sema sikuweza maana nilikuwa ugenini, hofu nyingi, kwaio nkautumia ule muda vizur kuwazia uelekeo wa maisha yangu
-majira ya saa 5 usiku nikasikia mlango unagongwa....nikawaza usikute ndugu zake wamerudi ghafla, bac nika panic...
-bac nkasikia unagongwa tena kwa nguvu, hapo ndo nika panic zaidi nkajisimea Leo ndo umetimia ule usemi...
"SIKU YA KUFA NYANI"😅😅😅
-ulivogongwa Mara ya 3 Suzanna akaongea kwa upole " Tarantino fungua"
-nkafarijika kujua kwamba alikuwa ni Suzanna, ila bado wasiwasi ulikuwepo nilizani maybe anataka kunambia wazaz wake wamerudi, hence nijifiche
-Bac kwa sababu nilikuwa nmevaa boxer tuu, ilibidi nivae Shati ili kuficha kidogo utupu wangu(kumbuka Suzanna ni rafiki angu kipenzi staki anione kama namtaka kimapenzi wala sina hayo mawazo kabisa) bac nikafungua mlango, alikuwa amevaa kagauni cha kulalia kafupi sana hadi ghafla mapigo ya mbio yakaenda moyo, sikumuuliza unataka nn nikawa namkodolea macho tuu
-akasema "mbona upo kimya"??
-nikajibu " sina usemi suzanna, ongea ww, unashida gani"??
-akakaa kimya kama nusu dakika hv tukawa tunaangaliana tuu (aisee kukodoleana macho(staring at people) nipo vizuri sana yaan saaana) akasema
"anaogopa kulala peke ake"
-nikamuuliza "kwann, siku zingine upo peke ako unalalaje"??
-akasema " siku zingine sipo peke yangu, nampigiaga simu rafiki angu anakaa jirani anakuja tunalala wote"
-nikamuuliza "kwann Leo hujampigia"??
-akasema "leo nimesahau cause nipo na ww"??
-nkamwambia " enhe kwaio inakuwaje sasa"??
-akajibu "inabidi uchague uje kule room kwangu au mm nije huku"??
-nikawaza bora niende kwake nisimsumbue kuja huku, nkasema "poa nakuja room ako"
-ghafla kabla hajaanza kuondoka mlangoni nkamuuliza "kwaio sasa nambie kabisa nikija huko nalala wapi, chini au juu?? Ili kama ntalala chini nijiandae kabisa kisaikolojia"???
-akanijibu " bhana ww mbona maswali mengi, we njoo tuu"
-Bac nikawa nawaza sana itakuwaje, akaja tena akauliza "unakuja au"?? Nkamjibu " nakuja, subiri kidogo" nkajikusanya nikaenda, nkajisemea "liwalo na liwe"
-Bac nilienda room ake pale nikawa natandika shuka chini sakafuni na mto nimeuweka pale chini nmejiandaa kulala pale chini mzee
-Mara nikamsikia anasema "ww kwann unataka ulale hapo chini, si uje ulale na mm"?? Nkamjibu "ww usijali"
-akasema tena kwa nguvu "hapana njoo tulale wote hapa kitandani"??
- nkamuuliza "kwan shida iko wapi suzanna"??
-akajibu "ndio kuna shida kwann ulale chini, unaniogopa au"??
-nkamjibu "hapana,mbona mm kamanda nakimbiza usingizi hapahapa chini" nkamwambia tena "tukutane asubuhi, mm nalala hapahapa chini"
-akasema "hapana bhana mm nmekuita ulale na mm kitandani sio chini" bac alivoona nakaza, bhana akashuka kitandani kwa nguvu akanipora lile shuka na ule mto nakajiambia "huyu kweli amejiza titi"
-nkamuuliza tena "aisee inakuwaje sasa sisi jinsia tofauti tunalala kitanda kimoja, nikipandisha midadi usiku itakuwaje"???
-akajibu "ntakupiga vibao midadi iondoke" alijibu huku anacheka...
-hapo mi nkajua tuu nshapatikana
(SUZANNA ALIKUWA RAFIKI ANGU KIPENZI TUNAEHESHIMIANA, SIKUZOTE SIKUWAHI KUMTAMANI KIMAPENZI JAPOKUWA ALIKUWA MREMBO WA SURA NA MAUMBILE LAKINI NILIUPENDA URAFIKI WETU ZAIDI KULIKO KU ENTERTAIN MAWAZO YA KUMTONGOZA,hapa najua wanaume wachache watanielewa)
-bac nikapanda kitandani, ila nkawa sijalala nipo macho tuu
-sikutaka kuanza kumshika, japokuwa alikuwa anatamanisha, bado niliendelea kumheshimu kama rafiki maana hadi hapo siku jua intentions zake
-nikawa macho hadi saa 7 usiku, ndipo mkojo ukanibana, nilipoamka ili niende chooni, nkasikia sauti inasema "unaenda wapi"?? Nikamjibu "naenda chooni, vp mbona bado hujalala"?? Akajibu "nna mawazo kadhaa ndo maana bado sijalala" mm nkajibu "oke, ila jitahidi kulala, au na ww una 'insomnia'(matatizo ya kukosa usingizi) kama mm"??
-akacheka akajibu "hapana", mm nkamwacha nikaenda chooni
-nilivorudi nikaona taa ya chumbani imewashwa wakati mm sikuiwasha, nikapata wasiwasi, nilivoingia chumbani nikamkuta Suzanna amesimama na akavua lile gauni lake fupi mbele yangu....
-Nkajisemea kimoyomoyo "I'LL BE DOUBLE DOG DAMNED"
-aisee suzanna ana mwili mzuri sana, siku wahi kufikiria Suzanna angekuwa na mwili mzuri kiasi kile
-nkamuuliza " UPO SERIOUS "??
-hakujibu, Mara akapiga hatua mbele yangu akanikamata mashavu yangu kwa mikono yake akanivuta uso akanipiga denda zito, aisee hapo mwili wote ukasisimka hadi vinyweleo vikasimama(ila mashine bado imelala hapo)
-sikusita nikamkamata mata--ko yake nikayabinya, aisee ni malaini ile hatari yaaan ni soft saaaana, mwili ukasisimka tena ila chakushangaza mashine bado imetulia tulii
-Nkambeba nkamlaza kitandani kama malkia wangu mpendwa, nikaanza makeke yangu ya hapa na pale, nikaanza kumpiga mabusu mwili nzima, nilimbusu kila sehemu sensitive ya mwili wake, nilinyonya mazima na kum--tia vidole kweny K yake akawa anapiga makelele anataja jina langu "Jaman Quentin, Quentin, Quentin aaaaaaah" nilipotaka nianze kuipiga busu K nkakumbuka juzi nilitoka kusoma madhara ya watu wanaofanya hizi mishe, bac nikajisemea "achana na haya maswala Quentin"
-Bac tukachezeana sana, ikafika wakati sasa wa kuingiza mashine, mashine ikawa bado imelala( aisee nilipigwa na butwaa sana,niliona ndo naelekea kuaibika)
-bac sikupoteza muda maana angejua, nikaendelea na kumchezeachezea ila bado mzee mashine haisimami, nkajaribu sasa kuilazimisha ivoivo iingie, nikizani maybe kuigusisha na K itaisisimua isimame lakini wapi ikakataa bhana
-nikaanza kuona kama Suzanna amehisi kuna kitu hakipo sawa, alipochunguza akagundua mzee, na yeye akajaribu kuishika na kuiingiza kweny K ikashindikana
-AISEE KILICHOFATIA NIKAVAA BOXER, NIKANYANYUKA KWA HUZUNI KUBWA NA KWENDA KUKAA KWENY KITI CHA PALEPALE CHUMBANI HUKU NIMESHIKA KICHWA NA NMEANGALIA CHINI (SIKUWEZA KUANGALIA JUU MAANA NILIOGOPA KUKUTANA NA MACHO YA SUZANNA KWAIO NIKABAKI NATIZAMA CHINI TUU KWA AIBU SANA)
MASWALI MAZITO YAKAWA YANANIJIA..
-HV, HUU NDO MWANZO WA USHOGA???
-HUU NDO MWANZO WA KUITWA HANISI???
-SUZANNA ATANICHUKULIAJE MM NILIESHINDWA JAMBO DOGO KAMA HILI??
-SUZANNA SI ATANIDHARAU SANA NA ATANIHISI SIJAKAMILIKA NA UKARIBU WETU UTAISHA???
-JE AKINITANGAZIA KWA MARAFIKI ZANGU ITAKUWAJE???
-Aisee ntaendelea kesho nmechoka kutype, daaah!
-Wazee bac ndo ivo nikawa nmekaa pale kweny kiti kile, mawazo mengi, sikujua la kufanya maana nilijua ndo bac tena nshaaibika
-kilichokuwa kinanipanikisha zaidi, Suzanna alikuwa ananiangalia tuu alaf haongei kitu kama dakika tano hv
-mwishowe akafungua mdomo akaongea "Quentin usijali ni jambo la kawaida"
-mm nikawa kimya tuu nmeinamisha kichwa chini, nakuna nywele tuu, sina la kujibu sina la kufanya
-akaongea tena "umesikia Quentin usiwaze sana ni jambo la kawaida"
-mm nikajibu kimoyomoyo "we ushawahi ona wapi mwanaume mkamilifu hasimamishi mashine"?? Huku nikitikisa kichwa na bado nmeangalia chini
-bac tulikaa pale kimya kama dakika 10,
Akaongea tena akasema "kwaio vp unakuja kulala au"??
-nikakaa kimya kidogo, kisha nikajibu kwa sauti ya chini sana "ndio"
-nikawaza kweli nkalale tena pale na yeye, si bora tuu nirudi kule nilipokuwa mwanzo
-nka reason kurudi kule ndo litakuwa jambo la hekima kufanya kuliko kulala nae kitanda kimoja baada ya tukio la aibu lililonikuta
-bac baada ya muda nkanyanyuka nikawa kama naondoka, Suzanna akauliza "unaenda wapi"?? Nkajibu " we usijali" akauliza tena "ww unaenda wapi"?? Nkamwambia "narudi kule nilipokuwepo" bac akakaa kimya, akawa hana usemi, mm nkarudi ile room, nikajilaza kitandani
-Aisee ule usiku ilikuwa mrefu sana, yaan sana, usiku uliojaa mawazo mengi na maswali mengi na kila moja halina jibu
-Alfajiri saa12 chaaaap, ilivofika Nika amka nikaenda kuoga niondoke asubuhi na mapema
-nikaenda kumuaga Suzanna ambae bado alikuwa amelala, akanambia "mbona unaondoka mapema ivo"??, nikamjibu kwa sauti ya chini sana huku nikiangalia pembeni sikutaka kumwangalia usoni, nkajibu "we usijali", akauliza tena "si usubiri tunywe chai"?? Nkamjibu tena kwa sauti ya chini "we usijali"
-Bac mm chaap nkachanganya miguu, nkatafuta usafiri, Huyo hadi home
-nilivofika home mawazo yakawa mengi sana, na sikupata amani kabisa, nilivoshika simu nkakuta SMS ya Suzanna akisema eti "Quentin usiwe na mawazo sana, sina fikra mbaya juu yako" nkajisemea kwanguvu pale sebuleni "ww umdanganye nani kum'm'make"
-nkaona tena SMS nyingine inasema "usijali, your secret is safe with me"
Ndo nkaropa tena kwa nguvu pale sebuleni "kum'm'make walahi, demu ashanichukulia hanisi mm"
-nikawa nawaza pale sebuleni, nifanyaje hii hali iishe, bac nkakumbuka kuna mwanang flani ivi tunapenda kushauriana mambo ya ukweli but sometimes tunashauriana hata upumbavu, bac nikampigia simu nikampanga tukio zima lilivokuwa
-bac yy akawaza kidogo, akanipanga akasema "sikia mwanang, we usiogope wala nn, jioni nitakupitia hapo chaap tuu tuende sinza kule mitaa ya bitches, kule ndo itajulikana kwamba ndo tayar ushakuwa shoga au bado"
-nkamjibu "acha us'nge ww mi sio shoga"
-akasema "mi sijui mzee, ila we jiandae tuu hapo tuingie usiku" nkamwambia "haina nomah"
-Bac usiku ukafika tukaingia maeneo, nikatafuta bitch anayenifaa, nkaongea naye vizur, nkamwelekeza kila kitu anachotakiwa kufanya, bac tulivofika room yule mdada akanza mambo yake(nyonya mashine) kwa Bahati nzuri bhana MASHINE IKASIMAMA, ilivosimama nkafurahi hadi nikawa najichekesha(nikajisemea kimoyomoyo "bado nipo kweny list ya wanaume"), yule mdada akaniuliza "vp mbona unacheka"??, nikamjibu "laiti ungalijua mambo yaliyonitokea"
-bac nikapiga kimoja chaap, nikaondoka, sikutaka kuendelea tena maana nilikuwa natafuta tuu ile satisfaction kwamba bado naweza kusimamisha mashine, nilivoona imekubali bac nikajisemea "MISSION COMPLETE"
-nikampitia mwanang, mwanang akaniuliza "enhe vp, shoga au sio shoga"
Nikamjibu "mwanang, mi bado mwanaume, tena mwanaume wa shoka kum'm'make"
-bac zile SMS za Suzanna sikuzijibu aisee, na kuna zingine alituma tena sijazijibu hadi leo.....daaaah! Ndo ivo wazee.