I'm HIV + naanza safari yangu ya matumaini

[Miracle12]

Habari ndugu zangu samahani nilishindwa kuwa kwenye thread sababu nilikuwa kazini na kweli ndugu mmeniliza sana. Napitia comment na nafeel kabisa kuwa kawaida. Nimepata nguvu mpya ya kusonga mbele. Pia kwa niliowaudhi kwa kuchanganya lugha naomba mniwie radhi ni mazoea tu sababu huwa napenda kutumia kingereza zaidi ili kujiimarisha katika kuzungumza na kuandika pia na nilitaka kuandika kwa kiswahili ila nikajikuta nachanganya lugha nadhani wanaosomea lugha watajua namaanisha nini. Mungu awabariki sana ndugu zangu. Kweli inakatisha tamaa na sometimes unaona kama dunia inanielemea sana. Jamani jamni jamani inaumiza saana

 

[Miracle12]

Asante kaka ubarikiwe sana

Kwanza kabisa ondoa hofu kijana,jikubali,pia kuhusu kutokubaliwa kwenda marekani sio kweli kwani hata huko ukimwi upo pia mim kuna ndugu yangu naye alikua hivyo hivyo na hivi sasa amekwenda marekani maisha yanakwenda,pia siku hizi ukimwi hautishi kama zaman umepunguzwa kasi hivi kunaugonjwa mbaya kama kansa ? Kwann ujiogope wewe?ukijiwaza ndio utajiua,tena angalau kwasasa nilisikia marekani wamegundua dawa inayoonesha kufanikiwa kwa 90% mwakani inaanzwa kujaribiwa kwa binadam na kwa mujibu wa WHO dawa ikionesha mafanikio kwa asilimia 80%inaruhusiwa kutumika hivyo tumuombe mungu ifike haraka na huku kwetu.ila chsmsingi usiwe na mawazo kwani kila binadam atakufa kulingana na mwenyez mungu alivyomuandikia hakuna atayebaki,hivyo pambana na maisha kula vizuri,ondoa mawazo maisha yataenda sawa.pia hapa jf uwe na moyo wa uvumilivu kwani kunawatakao kuja na kukupa maneno ya kukukatisha tamaa sasa uwe na ngozi ngumu usiyaweke kichwani.

 

[Miracle12]

HhahakkQUOTE="Mamndenyi, post: 24030248, member: 41512"]Usiogope. Mungu akuponye. Zingatia dawa na maombi. Hakika utapona.[/QUOTE]
hakika nitapona. Ubarikiwe sana ndugu yangu.

 

[Chris14]

Pole sana mkuu, zingatia ushauri wa wataalamu.

Huu ugonjwa huu [emoji26]

 

[bongo man]

Ukimwi si ugonjwa wa kumtisha mtu kiasi hicho kwa sasa

 

[bioto]

pole sana mkuu but usikate tamaa kula vizuri, fanya mazoezi, mwombe Mungu halafu usiwaze sana maana kuwaza sio solution

 

[Ahead]

Mungu anakupenda rafiki hata ktk hali iliyonayo,ukimwani hauta potea hata unywele in vain,naishi na wenye HIV mtaani lakini sijawahi washusha thamani.

 

[Void ab initio]

HIV is no longer a death sentence.

 

[luckyline]

imeniumaaaaaa mpaka nimelia hasww, pole sana.
Nahisi nimekuelewa sana kuliko wote trust me huo ugonjwa kama hukuwai kufanya mwpenzi umepata kwa mama. Na usimuulize wala nini.

Fanya hivi, omba ruhusa ya wiki nenda home usioneshe uzuni kuwa karibu na mama yako, the.jifanye unadeka kwake MPE wembe mwambie mama naomba unikate kucha, akimaliza kukukata na wewe mwambie mama na mm nikukate trust me atakataa

Pili kama una mazoea ya kwenda chumbani kwake pekua unaweza kuziona dawa zake.

Mwisho huo umri ni mdogo sana, ila kwa hali yako achana na ndoto za kwenda nje tafuta pesa oa mwanamke kwenye hali kama yako mzae watoto wawili. Tumia doz mqisha utayapenda

Inauma sana nilimsindikiza MTU kupima alivyopewa majibu nilizimia maana alikuwa anaumwa so mm ndo nilikuwa nashughulika na vipimo na kulipa acha kabisa.

 

[mtzmweusi]

Mkuu kama hutojali karibu pm kwa msaada zaidi wa ushauri na maombi i wanna take this challenge to God i know he is bigger than hiv karibu tumwamini Mungu pamoja

 

[Mangungo II]

Pole sana ndugu HIV siku hizi ni kama malaria tu isikutishe sana you will survive longer than u expect sahau kama unao piga kazi.

Haufi Leo wala kesho.

 

[Jerrymsigwa]

umenikumbusha,mwaka 2011 niko chuo mwaka wa kwanza,asa si unajua tena ile wenge ya bumu,mara paa nikakutana na binti mmoja kwa wakati huo alikua form six pale loyola,ebana mtoto alikua mkali yule,nikamtongoza na kweli mtoto nae akawa kanielewa sana,asa nikawa nashangaa mtoto ananibania kunipa papuchi while anasema ananipenda sana,na kilichokua kinanistaajabisha nilikua nikimwomba mchezo anakosa raha au anakua kama analia flani hivi,at first nilidhani labda ni kalelewa katika maadili flani hivi but i was wrong...so siku moja nikaamua kumpeleleza nimjue kiundani akanambia wazazi wake walishafariki wote na kwa wakati ule alikua analelewa na mama ake mdogo,kilichonifanya nianze kuchezwa na machale aliniambia vifo vya wazazi wake vilipishana mwaka mmoja tu,halafu ugonjwa uliowaua eti ni malaria,alarm ikagonga kichwani kuwa huenda wazazi walikufa kwa ngoma..anyway sikutilia maanani kivile,asa kuna siku tukawa tumepanga tena kukutana mahali ili nimtafune,ila cha ajabu binti akaja kavaa uniform za shule,yani alitumia hiyo technique ili nisiweze kumwingiza lodge coz wananchi wangeniijia juu kuwa natembea na mwanafunzi,ebana siku hiyo nilikasirika hatari,tukaagana usiku katika chatting na yeye akawa analia anasema nimsamehe tu yeye hawezi kufanya hicho kitendo ingawa ananipenda saana na anajiskia vibaya kunibania ila kuna siku ntaelewa kwa nini anakataa kufanya hivo..mara nikashangaa tena demu kaanza kusali makanisa ya walokole wakati alikua mlutheran mwenzangu..mwisho wa siku demu akaanza kuumwa hatari...kumbe alizaliwa na ukimwi bwana na alifariki 2013,i was next to her wakati anakata roho...na siku chache kabla ya kufa tuliongea nae ndo akanambia she real loved me ndo maana hakutaka kuniua...since then nimejifunza,huwa sifanyi ngono zembe kabisa maana niliishasalimika kifo..yule demu ingawa kafa lakini huwa namshukuru mpaka leo na upendo wake kwangu nauona kama ulikua wenye thamani kubwa sana...sidhani kama kuna mwanamke ashawahi kunipenda kama yule binti asee.

Duh kichwa cha chini shenzy sana, kilitaka kukuingiza mkenge

 

[ANDREW JOSEPH]

Wewe ni mtu wa nchi gani ndugu!!!!! Ila pole hiyo ni sehemu ya maisha kikubwa zingatia maelekezo ya wataalam wa tiba utaishi

 

[Mangungo II]

Mkuu kuna MTU anaitwa MAGIC JOHNSON naomba umgoogle soma habari zake toka tovuti mbalimbali una kitu cha kujifunza toka kwake .

Usikate tamaa.

 

[Miracle12]

Mkuu kuna MTU anaitwa MAGIC JOHNSON naomba umgoogle soma habari zake toka tovuti mbalimbali una kitu cha kujifunza toka kwake .

Usikate tamaa.

Ngoja nimgoogle ndungu. Asante sana.

 

[Miracle12]

Pole sana ndugu HIV siku hizi ni kama malaria tu isikutishe sana you will survive longer than u expect sahau kama unao piga kazi.

Haufi Leo wala kesho.

Amen Ubarikiwe ndugu

 

[Sir_Mimi]

Ndugu yangu/mdogo'angu wewe ni mzima sana mshukuru Mungu kwa hilo,HIV+ sio mwisho wa maisha,utaishi vizuri,utaowa na utapata watoto in shot utakaa mwenye furaha muhimu fuata tu masharti...napoandika hapa nina majonzi mazito nimepokea simu jioni hii kutoka Tabora jamaa yangu/mfanyabiashara mwenzangu niliekuwa nae juzi thursday jioni hapa Dar tukifurahi na kufarijiana kwa hali hii ngumu ya uchumi na akapanda bus jana asubuhi akafika nyumbani kwake salama asubuhi ya leo akaamkia ktk biashara zake ghafla akajisikia vibaya akarudi nyumbani akidhani ni uchovu ila ghafla amedondoka chini amefariki...haielezeki!i mean on the spot hakuomba hata maji!!!people die every day usiogope,wengine kwa pressure siku hizi kuna zimwi figo linatumaliza tunaojiona wazima kila siku,cancer sio ya damu sio ya koo wengine ajali wengine ndo hivyo kwenye mifuko ya sandarus yaani alimradi hakuna mwenye uhakika na maisha.binadm wote tuna mitihani ni vile tu hatuwezi kila mmoja kuhadithia yanayomsibu na wengine hatuyajui ndo kama hivi mimi ninaejiona mzima nadondoka wewe uliekwishakujua afya yako nakuacha ukidunda.usikate tamaa!

 

[Akili Unazo!]

Mkuu

Hello guys,

First of all,ningependa kumshukuru Mungu kwa yote anayozidi kunitendea in my whole life since i was born. Na nimeamua kuja hapa sababu najiona kamae I'm alone in this word and maybe you guys wakubwa kwa wadogo wazee kwa vijana mtakuwa na lolote la kunishauri.

Natanguliza shukran kwa wote mtaopitia this thread and may God use all of you kunishauri cas nmekua na ndoto nyingi but now is like I'm nothing in this word.
I have a long story to tell but naona itaniumiza cas maisha nlopitia after my father died God knows. Ila now I'm trying to accept who i am now. (some says is true HIV Exists and others says is a hoax) but to me i see it like true maybe nathani wale ambao ni +ve like me wataelewa what am i talking about. Is very hard for me to believe but is like this:-(

Mimi ni kijana now I'm 22 yrs old na mpaka ninapoandika hivi my mother hajui if i have HIV and she still have so many hope on me cas hakubahatika kusoma but alinisomesha tena shule za ghalama tu kwa biashara zake ndogo ndogo na niafanikiwa kumaliza form 6 though nikapata temporally job here in Dar kwenye kampuni moja hivi nikaona let me work first and after getting money nijiendeleze cas my mom ni kama hali imekuwa ngumu kidogo kwake and alifurahi sana na kuniombea Mungu maana nilianza kumsaidia nae hata viela kidogo vya matumizi akiwa na shida I'm the only person anaweza mpigia akiamini tamsaidia and i always do that hata leo nimetoka kuongea nae na yeye anafurahi sana ila hajajua mimi nina huzuni kuu na nilikuwa natoa machozi wakati naongea nae japo sikutaka ajue if nalia ye yuko mkoani so nkifikiria siku atayojua sijui itakuaje. Though I'm planning not to tell her ever.

Niliumwa nikiwa at work ghafla tu kichwa and nikawa sijielewi but nikajua it will be Maralia so i took medicine (panadol) kutuliza mauvivu then badala ya kupata nafuu hali ilikuwa mbaya and it was just in few moment that happened so cas it was late nikaondoka nikaenda kwangu ninapoishi but all i was thinking was just maralia cas i don't use mosquito net.

Then next day nikaenda hospital kubwa tu down town nikapima and the result comes that ni maralia so i went back home nikiwa na dawa nilizopewa hospital but hali ilizidi kuwa mbaya nikawa siwezi hata kusimama jioni and naishi alone so nikamcontact my friend (she is just like my sister to me cas she is all i ahave in Dar) so nikaenda kwake that night but hali ikawa mbaya sana sana.

Kila nikinywa dawa hali inakuwa mbaya mpaka tukahisi maybe dawa walizonipa zina side effects mbaya sana. So next day jion hivi nikarudi hospital na nilipofika nikawaeleza and nikapata vipimo tena then this time doctor akasema mbona huna maralia ila una UTI na typhord.

Nikapewa dozi nikarudi but that night nilipokunywa dawa nilihisi I'm gonna die cas nilizidiwa mara mbili ya mwanzo so next day early in the morning nikarudi hospital and nilikua nakohoa sana sana mwili hauna nguvu so nikalazwa kabisa.

Nikatundikiw dripu nikapew na dawa but next day nikapata nafuu and i was like what happened i asked nesi wa pale hospital hakunijbu ila aliuliza kama nina ndugu Dar and i said no i have friends only na akaniuliza how i live nikamwambia.

She was so sad but nikajua ni nesi so ananionea huruma nnavo umwa. Next day nikawa ok and nikapew bili yangu ambayo ilikuwa kubwa kidogo kama mnavojua private hospitals. But sikujua naumwa nini and ile nataka kuondoka doctor akaniita ofisini kwake. And he asked me so many questions.

But i will never forget that in a simple way he told me now wewe ni muathirika wa VVU. Guys it was a bad moment ever in my life. And mimi nipo naugulia namuona as he is clrzy telling me such thing yeye akaanza kuniambia so inabidi uanze kutumia dawa. Siwezi kuelezea how i was that time but situation hio sitaisahau nililia kama mtoto mdogo but doctor didnt care na akanipeleka kwenye system yao ya watu wa HIV.

Niliona dunia yote imeniangukia nimetoka hapo kila niliemuona barabarani niliona sifanani nae. The question was where did i get this thing? Nkiangalia zile ARV nlizopew nilikuw nalia. Nilipewa pia dozi ya typhoid so nimefka home nikamwambia sister is just typhoid. Hakuweza kuja kunichukua hospital cas ya nature ya kazi yake na mda.

Guys until now sijamueleza mtu this issue but nikaemda 3 different hospitals kupma cas sikuamini but the answer was im HIV +. Nililia na kutaka kuacha hat kwenda kazini but nikajifikiria nikasema ok i will go. Nimeenda job kila niliemuona nilihisi anajua that nimeathirika.

Nilikuwa na hasira za ajabu na nilizima simu wiki nzima na sikuwa nalala usiku vizuri. But nikaanza kutumia dawa zile ARV. Naomba nisiendelee zaidi but sitasahau those days ever in my life. And trust me we have poor doctors in Tz (some not all) cas isingekuwa Mungu ningejiua trust me cas no doctor aliekuwa ananipa ushauri zaidi ya bla bla bla.

Ok back to the topic. Ndugu zangu nilikuwa nimeplan a lot of things but nimekata tamaa kabisa kabisa na najiona sio mtu tena.

Naomba ushauri wenu katika yafuatayo;
(1) nilikuwa nimeplan kwenda USA au Canada kutafta maisha kwa njia ya kusoma kwanza. But some people kwenye mtandao wanasema MTU mwenye HIV hawakubari katika nnchi hizo. Guys is it true? Because if is true I'm going to die soon kwa presha cas ni ndoto nilizokuwa nazo since niko mdogo sana.
Naomba niishie hapa cas i cant write anymore inaniuma sana guys.

Why world is not fare like this? Everyday I'm trying to figure out nimepata wapi huu ugonjwa but i don't get the answer. But all in all if naweza kupona please advise me how hata kama kuna madaktari wanaitaj mtu wamfanyie experiment here i am. Nchi yeyote.

Guys usiombe yakukute please stay safe always na usimcheke alienao cas you never know like i dont know nlikoupata. Nimekua wa kulia everyday I'm like God mbona umeniacha. But i hope tapona guys i hope one day takuwa ushuhuda kwa dunia in Jesus name Amen.

If una ushauri au maoni please unaweza kuja inbox. Sorry for long story but mengine nitaeleza ndani ya thread.

Thank you for reading this.

awali ya yote kabla sijasoma chochote cha walichochangia naomba nikuulize Wewe ni Jinsi Gani? Hayo Majibu umeyapata Lini? History yako ya Mahusiano Ipoje? Ndugu kuwa na HVI siyo Mwisho wa Kuishi nina mifano hai zaidi ya kumi na wanaweza kukushuhudisha. Kama unahitaji zaidi njoo inbox

 

[minji]

Pole sana

 

[Miracle12]

Ndugu yangu/mdogo'angu wewe ni mzima sana mshukuru Mungu kwa hilo,HIV+ sio mwisho wa maisha,utaishi vizuri,utaowa na utapata watoto in shot utakaa mwenye furaha muhimu fuata tu masharti...napoandika hapa nina majonzi mazito nimepokea simu jioni hii kutoka Tabora jamaa yangu/mfanyabiashara mwenzangu niliekuwa nae juzi thursday jioni hapa Dar tukifurahi na kufarijiana kwa hali hii ngumu ya uchumi na akapanda bus jana asubuhi akafika nyumbani kwake salama asubuhi ya leo akaamkia ktk biashara zake ghafla akajisikia vibaya akarudi nyumbani akidhani ni uchovu ila ghafla amedondoka chini amefariki...haielezeki!i mean on the spot hakuomba hata maji!!!people die every day usiogope,wengine kwa pressure siku hizi kuna zimwi figo linatumaliza tunaojiona wazima kila siku,cancer sio ya damu sio ya koo wengine ajali wengine ndo hivyo kwenye mifuko ya sandarus yaani alimradi hakuna mwenye uhakika na maisha.binadm wote tuna mitihani ni vile tu hatuwezi kila mmoja kuhadithia yanayomsibu na wengine hatuyajui ndo kama hivi mimi ninaejiona mzima nadondoka wewe uliekwishakujua afya yako nakuacha ukidunda.usikate tamaa!

Im very sorry ndugu yangu. Is too sad ila nmezidi kujifunza kitu kupitia post yako.