And now You have touched listen to me in turn. me more profoundly than I thought even you could have touched me - my heart Was full I am yours for everything. (11aprr2011) Dear Mishell, Do you know, I have been feeling ashamed of thinking of you so much, of thinking of only you--which is too much, perhaps. Shall I tell you? It seems to me, to myself, that no woman was ever before to any man what you are to me--the fullness must be in proportion, you know, to the vacancy...and only I know what was behind--the long wilderness without the blossoming rose...and the capacity for happiness, like a black gaping hole, before this silver flooding. Is it wonderful that I should stand as in a dream, and disbelieve--not you--but my own fate? Was ever any one taken suddenly from a lampless dungeon and placed upon the pinnacle of a mountain, without the head turning round and the heart turning faint, as mine do? And Shall I thank you or God? Both, indeed, and there is no possible from me to either of you! I thank you as the unworthy may and as we all thank God. How shall I ever prove what my heart is to you? How will you ever see it as I feel it?