Unajituma mno katika kuandika matusi. Pengine unataka uonekane tough but no am gon dismantle you hapa hapa with few lines.
Your need to be seen as tough, with a I-don't-care-attitude is just a ruse to hide the really you. The really you is the adult struggling to cope with simple social skills such as forming relationship.
This has come from the fact that you had rough home, rough upbringing and your father was never home frequently or was never home at all. This explains the shitty behavior you picked up during childhood as your mom screamed and scolded you thinking she is straightening you but she was molding you into a guy we see right now.
Easy to insult and charge at people, difficult in maintaining relationships.
As Dad wasn't home you skipped Oedipus complex, so you never knew how to be a man. You think being a man is being a bully.
But no you are just a b!tch with daddy issues.