Karucee
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- Mar 11, 2012
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I am a loner. No, I haven't always been like this.... I guess life made me this way. And as days go by I continue to wean my circle of friends. It ain't easy. Because for some reason I am somebody who tends to draw people to me. And shunning them ain't easy. Sometimes I wish I were a big bad monster like Gru in the Despicable Me Cartoon. Somebody mean, Somebody who wards off people and makes them stop dead in their tracks then they are about to spill the beans. Hahaaa.
For some reason people like to talk to me. Some say I have a beautiful voice that they don't get tired of but I am sure it ain't this. People love to talk to me about stuff....stuff so private, stuff so hurting that it ends up hurting me as well.
I appreciate that people get the unwanted weight off their chests..... It sure is great to help them ease off the stress. The problem is no matter how hard I try, deep down their troubles affect me. I wish I could face these people and say NO but its not like they are people I know. I have been stopped by people in the streets of Kariakoo, in the midst of dinner with my beau, in buses, in salons.... and the things they talk to me about is way out of this world.
What is it about me that makes these people single me out from the crowds and pour their hearts out?? It is never a need of money, it is the desire to talk to someone. I have been through a lot for the better part of my life and I know how difficult it is to just speak to anyone about stuff.
This is like speaking to the man on the moon , it is likely things will never change but I wish to understand this. They walk away feeling better, and for a moment I feel good that I made someone unbeknownst to me smile but whatever they are going through... affects me. Leaves me in deep thought....and the weight of their troubles is transferred to me shoulders. I too have problems of my own, therefore most of the times it becomes unbearable yet I wouldn't go around spilling people's secrets and troubles.
There are smart people in here, who can shed some light on this 'gift' and help me feel better about it, even if I cannot change it.
Kindly help a sister out.
Same Old Karucee.
cc. Mtambuzi, EMT, SHIEKA, The Boss, KIKUNGU, Don Mangi, kadoda11, BAK, SHERRIF ARPAIO, gobore (..........)
...... and you there who can relate to what this thread is about.
For some reason people like to talk to me. Some say I have a beautiful voice that they don't get tired of but I am sure it ain't this. People love to talk to me about stuff....stuff so private, stuff so hurting that it ends up hurting me as well.
I appreciate that people get the unwanted weight off their chests..... It sure is great to help them ease off the stress. The problem is no matter how hard I try, deep down their troubles affect me. I wish I could face these people and say NO but its not like they are people I know. I have been stopped by people in the streets of Kariakoo, in the midst of dinner with my beau, in buses, in salons.... and the things they talk to me about is way out of this world.
What is it about me that makes these people single me out from the crowds and pour their hearts out?? It is never a need of money, it is the desire to talk to someone. I have been through a lot for the better part of my life and I know how difficult it is to just speak to anyone about stuff.
This is like speaking to the man on the moon , it is likely things will never change but I wish to understand this. They walk away feeling better, and for a moment I feel good that I made someone unbeknownst to me smile but whatever they are going through... affects me. Leaves me in deep thought....and the weight of their troubles is transferred to me shoulders. I too have problems of my own, therefore most of the times it becomes unbearable yet I wouldn't go around spilling people's secrets and troubles.
There are smart people in here, who can shed some light on this 'gift' and help me feel better about it, even if I cannot change it.
Kindly help a sister out.
Same Old Karucee.
cc. Mtambuzi, EMT, SHIEKA, The Boss, KIKUNGU, Don Mangi, kadoda11, BAK, SHERRIF ARPAIO, gobore (..........)
...... and you there who can relate to what this thread is about.
