hidden sorrow
Senior Member
- Oct 15, 2007
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Dear Love
I know you cannot read this now (may be you can, I don't know),
Its been few days since you left us, in the most sudden , shocking and unpredictable way. I am still not able to comprehend and believe that you are actually gone. You were a very important part of my life, and though we didn't see each other often, but we were always in touch.
Exactly one month before you left us, I was informed in a dream that someone close to me was going to die, I kept on praying that it won't happen, and even so, I never thought it was going to be you .
The grief is still very heavy, I think about you all the time, I read our chats, I listen to our accidentally recorded phone conversations, I look at your photos and wish you could come back to us and take this pain away. I will always cherish these memories , they mean so much to me.
Can you see me cry? Can you see my bleeding heart? If you do, can you give me a sign? That should be enough for me, just for some peace of mind.
Why do I feel like we have some kind of unfinished business? What did you want to tell me before you left? What do you want to tell me now? Please let me know, I know you can reach out to me by ways only heaven knows.
You were so good to me and everyone around you. You could apologize for mistakes committed by other people. Even when I was the one who caused you misery, you were the first one to reach out and ask "mama umefika salama"?.
Were you even a normal human being? Even when you found out that I did something very bad to you, your love didn't judge, but erased that memory immediately. You forgave me quickly, kept it to yourself and took that secret to the grave with you, what a man!
You'd always say "nakupenda" even during the most heated fights. You were so quick to forgive and forget. That one time we fought, I insulted you, you got very angry and wanted to join forces with my enemies. But the love you had for me overshadowed the anger, and you rejected their plan. Immediately after I apologize you told everything that my adversaries were planning against me! You saved my life!
You had many special people in your life, but you loved each and every one of us individually, making sure that everyone gets your utmost attention. I am still amazed by the kind of a person you were.
In the last few months we couldn't meet, I believe God was preparing me for your everlasting absence, but we could talk for hours, plan about future travel and gossip a little 😂.
I know something is not right about the way you passed away, but we leave everything for God to judge. I feel like a child who's been left alone by his parents, but everytime I am reminded that God will take care of me.
I want to talk about you all the time, even to the people who don't know you, I get some relief that way.
Oh dear, why do I feel like you're still alive? I feel your presence all the time.
There are just so many questions I want to ask you, are you comfortable there? Have you met with some new friends? Do you also miss us? Will I see you when I cross to that side? Or you would have forgotten about me by then?
I have written this tribute so I can always come back here and read. I will forever cherish the memories we had, always appreciate your love, support, encouragement and companionship.
I pray that God forgive all your sins, and accept you in His Kingdom 🙏
Nakupenda sana mpenzi wangu, safiri salama, salimu maulana, tutaonana baadae 🙏
Forever in my heart, till we meet again. I will mourn you till I join you.
Love always
Hidden Sorrow 🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️
I know you cannot read this now (may be you can, I don't know),
Its been few days since you left us, in the most sudden , shocking and unpredictable way. I am still not able to comprehend and believe that you are actually gone. You were a very important part of my life, and though we didn't see each other often, but we were always in touch.
Exactly one month before you left us, I was informed in a dream that someone close to me was going to die, I kept on praying that it won't happen, and even so, I never thought it was going to be you .
The grief is still very heavy, I think about you all the time, I read our chats, I listen to our accidentally recorded phone conversations, I look at your photos and wish you could come back to us and take this pain away. I will always cherish these memories , they mean so much to me.
Can you see me cry? Can you see my bleeding heart? If you do, can you give me a sign? That should be enough for me, just for some peace of mind.
Why do I feel like we have some kind of unfinished business? What did you want to tell me before you left? What do you want to tell me now? Please let me know, I know you can reach out to me by ways only heaven knows.
You were so good to me and everyone around you. You could apologize for mistakes committed by other people. Even when I was the one who caused you misery, you were the first one to reach out and ask "mama umefika salama"?.
Were you even a normal human being? Even when you found out that I did something very bad to you, your love didn't judge, but erased that memory immediately. You forgave me quickly, kept it to yourself and took that secret to the grave with you, what a man!
You'd always say "nakupenda" even during the most heated fights. You were so quick to forgive and forget. That one time we fought, I insulted you, you got very angry and wanted to join forces with my enemies. But the love you had for me overshadowed the anger, and you rejected their plan. Immediately after I apologize you told everything that my adversaries were planning against me! You saved my life!
You had many special people in your life, but you loved each and every one of us individually, making sure that everyone gets your utmost attention. I am still amazed by the kind of a person you were.
In the last few months we couldn't meet, I believe God was preparing me for your everlasting absence, but we could talk for hours, plan about future travel and gossip a little 😂.
I know something is not right about the way you passed away, but we leave everything for God to judge. I feel like a child who's been left alone by his parents, but everytime I am reminded that God will take care of me.
I want to talk about you all the time, even to the people who don't know you, I get some relief that way.
Oh dear, why do I feel like you're still alive? I feel your presence all the time.
There are just so many questions I want to ask you, are you comfortable there? Have you met with some new friends? Do you also miss us? Will I see you when I cross to that side? Or you would have forgotten about me by then?
I have written this tribute so I can always come back here and read. I will forever cherish the memories we had, always appreciate your love, support, encouragement and companionship.
I pray that God forgive all your sins, and accept you in His Kingdom 🙏
Nakupenda sana mpenzi wangu, safiri salama, salimu maulana, tutaonana baadae 🙏
Forever in my heart, till we meet again. I will mourn you till I join you.
Love always
Hidden Sorrow 🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️
