Posted by Lizzy | May 14, 2012 I once loved a man, only once and not twice. I loved a man that was as real as I'd ever seen a man. He didn't belong to any group, he was his own man. I loved him not for his looks. or money but for who he was. Yes, I loved him for the same reasons that other people might have not liked about him. He was bold and straight, he had principles that he always stood by, he was smart and intelligent, he was sweet and loving and he was very much loveable. He was 'that' man that made me smile whenever I got a call, a text or an e-mail from him. The man that put crazy thoughts in my head. I prayed, wished and hoped that he'd be mine because I wanted to be his. I wanted to kiss him and love him for as long as I lived, I wanted him to whisper 'sweet nothings' to my ear every night, I wanted to be that woman for him, the one that'd say "I'm spoken for" whenever someone else tried to court her and meant it. I wanted to be the one to care for him when he was sick, the one to help him whenever he was in need, the one to kiss his head and look into his eyes before telling him I loved him. I wanted to be his shoulder to lean on, be the centre of his world, lie on his chest for safety, be wrapped around his hands for assurance all because he was the only man that I have ever truly loved. Ohhhh how I loved him. They say 'when you love someone's personality everything about him/her becomes beautiful'. . .well that's how it was with him. I saw no faults with him. Not that he didn't have any, I simply did not care. He was the perfect man FOR me , what else could I have asked of him other than his love in return? I had no desire to change or shape him, no desire to have him acting like the next guy, I just wanted HIM. He called me BabyGal and he was my Daddy. Hhhmmmmm. . . He was the only man that ever called me that. If there is another who tried. . .I do not remember. He was not that important. Only he was. . . He inspired me to write the sweetest poems I have ever written, gave me the sweetest thoughts and got me to sing the most beautiful songs. I WISH. . . I wish your heart could see mine for what it's truly is. . The love in it. . cannot be more than yours!! I wish you could listen to it and hear what it says. . Talk back to it 'till you know it'll never cheat yours. I wish my intentions could be displayed to you like an open book. . So you'd see that I ain't no crook! I wish your heart would feel the same way. . So I'd never have to beg you to stay! I wish wishes were horses, so that I too could own one. SMILE. . . Smile, smile and brighten my day. Is it too soon for me to feel the urge to have you close to me? Dream about your kiss. . Wish we had a past to reminisce? Is it too soon for me to wish that we could be? Long for your touch. . Be loved by you much. . ? Am I a day too soon? Should I wait another day? . . maybe think through what to say? Ahhh I'll just blurt it out and run away, just. . . . run away. When I go to sleep I imagine that you are there with me. . Your beautiful brown eyes gazing at me. Your sweet voice soothing me. . Your arms embracing me. . Your lips, gently moving towards mine and. . . . kissing me. I think I LOVE YOU. I know you are a 'lil bit crazy. . Unappreciated by many. . With a different way of thinking. . A different way of dealing. . But, I think I LOVE YOU. One chance, that's all I wish for. . With you, there is no place I wouldn't go. . For you, not much I wouldn't do. . All because, well I think I LOVE YOU. Sweet ehhhh. . . ?Yeahh that's just how he made me feel. And that makes me wonder, WHY HIM? Why not someone who is less complex, some one who is not sarcastic when he need not be? Why not someone I have known for years? One that I could claim to know a lot? WHY NOW. . . ?Couldn't he have been a little earlier?Or a 'lil later?I don't know. . .I guess that's just life. Now that I know luck is not on my side, will I ever fall again? Will it work out?Will I be happy? Ahhhh. . . let me just stick to what I know. I loved him yesterday, I love him today and i'm almost sure I'll love him tomorrow.