This is an imaginary letter to you containing things I wish I could tell you to your face. I do not have the guts to tell you this because I might hurt your feelings but just writing it down will help ease my mind, or is it my heart.
I realize that you are a good man and now that we have our own new baby we have more reason to be happy. I am not sad and I truly appreciate your efforts in giving me everything I need and giving me a good life.
The problem dear husband, is that my heart is empty. I am very very lonely. Sometimes I just wanna curl up and cry. I feel so cold and all I want is you. I want to be held by you, have you talk to me, hold my hand....
Simply talk to me and do fun things. I have needs that are psychological and it is these that make me wonder how long this heart of mine will continue to feel cold. To the best of my knowledge, my basic needs are taken care of, I just wish we would bond because I love you and I wouldn't want to let my mind or heart wander.
With this I humbly submit.
