i do not see the excessive morbidity here. What I see is someone who is unwilling to accept the inevitable. It is bound to happen and I am not relying too much on its occurance. Instead I am making the most of the time I have. See?
I have the weight of two cultures on my shoulders. I totally get what you are saying, there is a degree of hedonism that embraces even the inevitable and makes the most of the dice we are dealt.
But also, this embracing of morbidity - if you disagree to the usage of "excessive" at least recognize that the origin of "the bucket list" are linked to "kicking the bucket", morbidity- this hedonism is not hedonistic enough, for it allow reality to stay in the picture.
I get the best of both worlds.
A non-sangfroid serendipitously mundane self contradicting dualitic hedonism that does not even want to acknowledge that there is a bucket list.
To me it's just things I want to do in life.
Once you invoke a "bucket" it's no longer fun because you remind yourself that you are on borrowed time.
A monk once told me that the best way to enjoy life is to live in the moment.
If you want to enjoy an apple, enjoy it's taste while you are eating it. Don't think "let me enjoy this apple so much now because the next minute it will be gone".
You will just remind yourself how temporal everything is.