Katunge World Wide
JF-Expert Member
- Apr 27, 2022
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I try so hard to act like I'm okay. I try so hard it just drains me; I've no energy, I barely want to eat, and all I want to do is sleep. But then someone looks at me and expects me to be okay and I have to put my "happy" mode on again. I just want to brake down and cry.
I just want all these feelings out of me. But by the time I finally get a moment alone to fade out it's like the feeling have already been so repressed they just won't come out. So I just lay there...wishing I could just fall asleep so I can wake up renewed but my mind won't turn off; not thinking but not quiet either.
It's weird always being someone who people see as happy and easy-going when inside all I feel is a deep sadness that I wish someone would see; to just hold me and tell me it'll be ok. I just don't...
I just want all these feelings out of me. But by the time I finally get a moment alone to fade out it's like the feeling have already been so repressed they just won't come out. So I just lay there...wishing I could just fall asleep so I can wake up renewed but my mind won't turn off; not thinking but not quiet either.
It's weird always being someone who people see as happy and easy-going when inside all I feel is a deep sadness that I wish someone would see; to just hold me and tell me it'll be ok. I just don't...