Heartbroken. Again!

Magnumpi said:

I'm writing this with tears in my eyes yet again. This always happens to me. I meet a guy, I fall in love, we are together for a while, I feel like maybe this is my final destination. That I wont have to feel the pain again but it just ends up the same way. Being left for no good reason. I'm very loyal, I don't cheat, I don't ask for money anyhow and I believe I'm a very beautiful woman. Yet tears and heartbreak always my portion.

My first ex changed up on me, it was very hard, I got pregnant he wanted me to abort which I did and left me.

My second ex ( we didn't have sex) he was the kind of guy I thought we could marry and have a family, he started acting weird. I launched my own investigation only to find out he is living with a certain lady. I moved on silently.

My 3rd boyfriend, I'm not sure what happened here but I found him in bed with a girl who is my neighbor, He ended up hitting me and kicked me out. It took a year to get over him as it was very hard seeing them together since the girl lived next to me. With a lot of suffering, tears and hurt I moved on.

This final guy, he was the sweetest, caring guy I've ever been with. We had a major difference (Religion). In the beginning, we agreed it shouldn't interfere with us. 1 year later he switched up and said he's mum will never be fir that idea unless I convert. I told him it's not easy to change my faith, something I grew up with just to marry him. He said we can no longer be together. Right now it's like I don't exist like I don't matter. It is easier for him since he had time to think and decide.

I'm still trying to figure out where do I go wrong, what is wrong with me? Will I ever find love or should I just agree with the fact that it is not my portion and protect myself from future heartbreaks.

Right now life is hard for me, I can't eat, I cry all the time, I don't have the energy to get out of bed but I have to go to work. I take antidepressants which helps me sleep but makes me emotional. I can't talk to anyone I know because i feel like they'll just feel pity for me and I don't want that.

I know time heals all wounds but right now this feeling is too intense. I don't deserve this but then again life is not fair.

This is not an ad. I'm not looking for a lover here. Please respect my pain, don't come to PM just to ask for my number etc. I can't stand anyone right now.

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Magnumpi said:

I'm writing this with tears in my eyes yet again. This always happens to me. I meet a guy, I fall in love, we are together for a while, I feel like maybe this is my final destination. That I wont have to feel the pain again but it just ends up the same way. Being left for no good reason. I'm very loyal, I don't cheat, I don't ask for money anyhow and I believe I'm a very beautiful woman. Yet tears and heartbreak always my portion.

My first ex changed up on me, it was very hard, I got pregnant he wanted me to abort which I did and left me.

My second ex ( we didn't have sex) he was the kind of guy I thought we could marry and have a family, he started acting weird. I launched my own investigation only to find out he is living with a certain lady. I moved on silently.

My 3rd boyfriend, I'm not sure what happened here but I found him in bed with a girl who is my neighbor, He ended up hitting me and kicked me out. It took a year to get over him as it was very hard seeing them together since the girl lived next to me. With a lot of suffering, tears and hurt I moved on.

This final guy, he was the sweetest, caring guy I've ever been with. We had a major difference (Religion). In the beginning, we agreed it shouldn't interfere with us. 1 year later he switched up and said he's mum will never be fir that idea unless I convert. I told him it's not easy to change my faith, something I grew up with just to marry him. He said we can no longer be together. Right now it's like I don't exist like I don't matter. It is easier for him since he had time to think and decide.

I'm still trying to figure out where do I go wrong, what is wrong with me? Will I ever find love or should I just agree with the fact that it is not my portion and protect myself from future heartbreaks.

Right now life is hard for me, I can't eat, I cry all the time, I don't have the energy to get out of bed but I have to go to work. I take antidepressants which helps me sleep but makes me emotional. I can't talk to anyone I know because i feel like they'll just feel pity for me and I don't want that.

I know time heals all wounds but right now this feeling is too intense. I don't deserve this but then again life is not fair.

This is not an ad. I'm not looking for a lover here. Please respect my pain, don't come to PM just to ask for my number etc. I can't stand anyone right now.

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Goddess said:

Naona watu wakiwa na huzuni hua wanajawa na kimalkia kichwani

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Watu8 said:

Jambo la kwanza sredi yako si ya kweli...

Na hata kama ingekuwa ya kweli basi hakuna mwanaume rijali atakuwa mpenzi wa kushikwa masaburiii kama wewe unavyopenda kuwashika shika wanaume makalio yao...

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Da'Vinci said:

Lugha uliyotumia sio rafiki

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Magnumpi said:

Dini ninayo. Mimi ni muislamu japo sio muislamu safi na nina madhambi kibao. Lakini sio rahisi leo nikubali yesu kua muokozi wangu na kuingia kanisani ili tu niolewe. Nitakua sijaitendea haki nafsi yangu.

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Watu8 said:

Jambo la kwanza sredi yako si ya kweli...

Na hata kama ingekuwa ya kweli basi hakuna mwanaume rijali atakuwa mpenzi wa kushikwa masaburiii kama wewe unavyopenda kuwashika shika wanaume makalio yao...

Wanaume na kushikwa Makalio

Habarini wana MMU. Nimewamisi sana. Natumai mtanistahi kidogo nawajua kwa majibu ya ovyo hamjambo. Mimi kuna observation nimepata. Wanaume kwanini hampendi kushikwa makalio na wenzi wenu? Kwa kweli mimi naona makalio ni sehemu sexy sana kwa mwanaume. Tena mwanaume akiwa na vile vijitako vigumu...

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toughlendon_1 said:

Aisee wazee wa reference mpo makini daah [emoji1787][emoji1787]


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project planner said:

Wazee wa reference hawajambo


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Tuttyfruity said:

Vipi have u moved on .... yet?

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Extrovert said:

From my own point of view & experience from your post i see a couple of issues in you personality that act as culprits.
1.Clinginess
2.Lack of confidence
3.Overprotectiveness

Explanations:
1.You need to get busy with your own life regardless being in a relationship.
Don't ever suffocate your man with endless attention seeking behaviour forcing him to be available for you 24/7! It never works because the situation will be so boring at the end and he will prolly start ignoring you. Give him space, mambo ya mameseji kila mda na nyingine usipojibiwa kwa wakati unazira ni utoto na kila mtu atakutosa.

2.Lack of confidence shows up when you always try to accuse your guy about dating other girls. Whenever he isn't around turns to a chain of complaints. No man likes a woman who nags! Utaachwa tu.

3.Lack of Understanding
If you are one of those girls ambao ukiambiwa kitu huelewi kwa mara moja, ubishi na kupenda ligi then your are death! Jichunguze vyema no man falls for that.

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