Noor
Senior Member
- Feb 5, 2012
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My sweetie Angel,
How are you? I am fine but so missed u in bed and everything. Vipi masomo yanakwendaje? tunza vizuri mali yangu mpenzi, maana I dont expect to hear unampa mwingine zaidi yangu honey. Najua tuko mbali lakini you are special kwangu and I take you as one in millions.
Sweetie, I come here today, in this way, because I need to apologize to you. Although I did not lie to you in faces, I lied to you with words that did not belong to me. I never meant to ruin the friendship that meant the world to me. You meant the world to me and now I come to you asking for forgiveness. If in your heart you find you can't, then I will understand and learn from this experience.
Angel my sweetheart, you came into my life at a time when I needed you most. We talked about so many things that I started to realize my heart and my soul could actually feel something other than hurt. You placed comfort where there was fear, confidence where there was doubt, a shoulder where tears could fall and completeness where there was emptiness. I wanted to hold onto to this so badly that I did whatever it took for you to notice. What I didn't realize was that I could lose my entire being, all of who I was and all that I had placed in you. I wanted to be the one who would be there when you needed me. I wanted to be the comfort for your soul when the world was too much to handle. I wanted to be strong for you when everything else seemed impossible. I wanted to love you in only the way you deserved to be loved, never realizing that I was destroying myself and you. Somehow I needed you to be a part of my life. The only problem was that I was willing to jeopardize anything.
All the things that I told you about how I felt and how you make me feel were true. Nothing else mattered to me except hearing the laughter in your voice when you were happy. You made my days easy to get through and my nights at peace, looking forward to another day; even though distance separated us just being was enough. I'm sorry for hurting you and if I had to do all over again I would have been 100% with you.
Angel, I know we both said so many things to each other that we least expected, trying to find out the truth about something, it's really hard and needs much time. I know you will say you can't forgive me, neither will you forget me, but I know deep down in me, may be I am the first to have said this to you also hurts me a lot. Whether you accept my apology or not *I'm truly sorry for my harsh and unpleasant words.*
For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you I know it pains but we should admit the truth. As I know I will cause pains to you but I'm really confused about everything. I much want things to be stable and thats if I get time I need to make decision. I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you let alone keeping you out of my mind.
Angel Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken; I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you.
Nakumbuka siku moja niliwahi kukueleza maneno haya I know you are so ugly with me even to reply ma sms, am so happy to hear from u. Angel the world is full of surprise, and the world is so big when u have nothing to do with it and very small when u have a lot to do with it. The truth is we don't only exist when we are near; am trying 2 make the world of ourselves is not that simple especial at this moment at the moment am living in the world of incubation. Soon after I will not and that is the time I will never never do the mistakes I did before, and I promise if u give me the chance and bear with me for a meantime I will make you the happy girl in our entire life. Ma love life is useless without you by ma side, you are the only gal who won ma heart, plz don't let the word love loose meaning in ma life, u are the only one who ever loved me truly, and understood ma feelings. am sorry 4 everything wrong that has ever happed, and the time I failed u. Angel it's never late until it's late, I can't move on without you by ma side. I will always love you until z world is over 4 me I will wait until am 100 year old from now. If I get the ability I will travel million miles looking for your love. Ni maneno ambayo nina imani yalitoka moyoni mwangu na the way I feel kwako kuna umuhimu wa kuyafanyia kazi. Angel always nimekuwa nikisema sorry lakini plz I beg you to take that as a special sorry kwani I know what am I trying to avoid.
Angel ma love najua nimekufumba kwa muda mrefu toka ulipoanza kusoma ujumbe huu lakini sina jinsi. Nashukuru kwamba umekuwa ukinielewa pale ninapokwambia kuwa kuna kitu flani kimetokea, nashukuru sana kwa moyo huo ambao ulinijengea mimi kuona wewe ni mwanamke shupavu na ambaye anatakiwa kuigwa.
Angel kwa muda sasa nimekuwa natafakari kwa kina mapenzi yako yote kwangu, na kubaini hisia zako za upendo wa dhati kwangu na uenda wewe ndiyo mke niliyemkosa tokea kuwepo maisha yangu.
Lakini pamoja na hayo yote ni vyema nawe pia ukafanya tathmini yako binafsi kuhusu mimi kwa kuzingatia malengo na matarajio yako ya maisha, uliyojiwekea na kuainisha kama mimi nimeishafuzu kuwa chaguo lako pekee la mume umtakaye maishani, kwenye maisha ambayo huwa hayatabiriki kwani yanaweza kuwa ya raha au kinyume chake kitu ambacho nina imani wewe hukuangalia nina nini na wala niko wapi ulinipenda kuliko inavyoweza kufikirika ila nakuhakikishia kuwa na mimi nilikupenda na nakupenda siwezi kuficha kwa mwenyezi mungu maana anajua hilo.
Angel maisha ya ndoa au ya mahusiano kabla ya ndoa yanahitaji uvumilivu wa hali ya juu na kuaminiana kusiko na kipimo. Nasema haya yote, kutokana na uzoefu wangu kuhusu maisha ya mahusiano na walio karibu yangu kunieleza juu ya ndoa kwa jamii ya dunia tunamoishi. Darling watu wengi hujihusisha na mapenzi au hufunga ndoa kukidhi mchakato wa maisha tu. Ndoa au mahusiano ya aina hii ni mengi mno, na ndoa za aina hiyo ndio zimekuwa chanzo cha maangamizi ya duniani. Zimekuwa chimbuko la watoto wa mitaani, malaya, walevi wa kupindukia, kukosa dira na hatimaye kusababisha vifo vyenye machungu, lakini, naamini hali hii ingeweza kuepukika, iwapo jamii ya wanandoa wangelifikia hatua ya kuoana kama hitajiko la moyo. Wakaongozwa na upendo, wakanuia kuaminiana, kuvumiliana kuheshimiana na kushauriana. Wakakwepa kabisa kuiga mila zisizo zao na wakaishi maisha ya uwazi na kuambizana ukweli. Maisha ya ndoa au mahusiano ya namna hiyo yangeweza kukidhi maana halisi ya ndoa.
Angel ndoto zangu zikitawaliwa na msingi Imara wa upendo wa ukweli ambao tumefanikiwa kuujenga. Angel am sorry kwa maneno ambayo nayaandika najua ni maneno ambayo kutokana na upendo wako kwangu najua yanakuuma kama yanavyoniuma mimi. Angel umejua mengi kutoka kwangu na mimi nimejua mengi kutoka kwako, sipendi tuyakumbuke yale Mabaya kama yapo (kwa upande wangu) najua yapo ila kwako hakuna naomba uyasaheme kama ulivyowahi kuniahidi kuwa samehe na sahau (Forgive and forget).
Angel wenzetu wanapenda kusema kuwa The captivating beauty and uniqueness of being a human being the truth of the matter is that once you have realized your error and learnt from it, you become completely changed. Angel nimefanya ujinga kwa muda mrefu na ni kitu ambacho nimekuwa nikikuficha lakini nimeamua kukwambia kwa sababu nakupenda na sioni kwa nini nisikwambie iwapo na wewe unanipenda. Angel una muda mrefu sana na mimi nadhani ni mwaka wa nne sasa tumeuanza. Na toka kipindi hicho nimekueleza mengi kama nilivyosema hapo juu lakini when I think of what I did, I feel shame and pain on me Angel. And when I turned away from you whenever there were hard times, how can I still be with you? Angel my Baby it breaks my heart to think that loving each other is not easy to do.
It has always been hard for me to find the gut to break to you my nut shell of the secret I have always hidden from you. But at the height of all, I have judged it expedient for me to clear your doubt about my life. In fact at the moment you have been fully informed about my fiancée though many times I never admitted the truth. It was hard for me to splash it at such an early moment when I could not exist without you. And knowing the obvious consequence of telling you all about our affairs, that it could put an end between you and me, I decided to continue playing all possible games for you to stay around me. In fact I am grateful for those precious moments we spend together charting, talking, romancing, kissing and the others but the sweetest one is your virgin. I really enjoyed even though all these never affected the extent to which I loved my fiancée and given what she means to me, hardly can I wait any more to tell you that SHE IS THE ONE and the only one even I can not think of any substitute, she is enough for me. Please I dont mean to hurt you by this, but its for our own good, because me to pretend that I love you yet I dont mean it. It makes no sense to me, while to you it may but a little. Dear this should not break our casual friendship because when I recall what we were to each other, I hold you with reasonable value and respect. Wherever and whenever, you will be, I promise you never to forget the beautiful, sweetie things we shared in our relationship. My fiancée is not so superior to other girls as you knows her or may be to you but my heart has loved her and am completely convinced not a single regret will ever cross over affair. She has been introduced to my family and I too been introduced to hers, any silly Idea can only bring shame to our beloved family and family members.
Sweetie, if you can say, I forgive you I will even hold you as a special woman among the women. I am guilty of hurting, but please am on my bended knees, forgive me for all this hurt and because of you, I will never hurt any one the way I have done to you for your sake.
Angel its ma sincere hope that you read this letter. You know I've tried every other thing to tell you how I feel about that issue but in vain: "I love you." I'm doing this to avoid you being embarrassed. I can say I'm not 100% sure you feel the same way as I do, but I know that existed in the past. However, I believe, my love, that if by coincidence you read this, you know I am saying this to you. I love you and always will. I can't help but tell you this.
Hope to hear from you. Angel I remain yours as long as you truly forgive me from your bottom of your HEART.
Forgive me please
MAY GOD BLESS YOU,
****
How are you? I am fine but so missed u in bed and everything. Vipi masomo yanakwendaje? tunza vizuri mali yangu mpenzi, maana I dont expect to hear unampa mwingine zaidi yangu honey. Najua tuko mbali lakini you are special kwangu and I take you as one in millions.
Sweetie, I come here today, in this way, because I need to apologize to you. Although I did not lie to you in faces, I lied to you with words that did not belong to me. I never meant to ruin the friendship that meant the world to me. You meant the world to me and now I come to you asking for forgiveness. If in your heart you find you can't, then I will understand and learn from this experience.
Angel my sweetheart, you came into my life at a time when I needed you most. We talked about so many things that I started to realize my heart and my soul could actually feel something other than hurt. You placed comfort where there was fear, confidence where there was doubt, a shoulder where tears could fall and completeness where there was emptiness. I wanted to hold onto to this so badly that I did whatever it took for you to notice. What I didn't realize was that I could lose my entire being, all of who I was and all that I had placed in you. I wanted to be the one who would be there when you needed me. I wanted to be the comfort for your soul when the world was too much to handle. I wanted to be strong for you when everything else seemed impossible. I wanted to love you in only the way you deserved to be loved, never realizing that I was destroying myself and you. Somehow I needed you to be a part of my life. The only problem was that I was willing to jeopardize anything.
All the things that I told you about how I felt and how you make me feel were true. Nothing else mattered to me except hearing the laughter in your voice when you were happy. You made my days easy to get through and my nights at peace, looking forward to another day; even though distance separated us just being was enough. I'm sorry for hurting you and if I had to do all over again I would have been 100% with you.
Angel, I know we both said so many things to each other that we least expected, trying to find out the truth about something, it's really hard and needs much time. I know you will say you can't forgive me, neither will you forget me, but I know deep down in me, may be I am the first to have said this to you also hurts me a lot. Whether you accept my apology or not *I'm truly sorry for my harsh and unpleasant words.*
For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you I know it pains but we should admit the truth. As I know I will cause pains to you but I'm really confused about everything. I much want things to be stable and thats if I get time I need to make decision. I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you let alone keeping you out of my mind.
Angel Inside of me there is a place where my sweetest dreams reside, where my highest hopes are kept alive, where my deepest feelings are felt and where my favorite memories are safe and warm. I find that you're on my mind more often than any other thought. Sometimes I bring you there purposely just to make my day brighter. But more often, you surprise me and find your own ways into my thoughts. There are even times when I awaken; I realize that you've been a part of my dreams. Then during the day, when my imagination is free to run, it takes me into your arms and allows me to linger there knowing there's nothing I'd rather do. I know my thoughts are only reflecting the loving hopes of my heart because whenever they wander, they always take me to you.
Nakumbuka siku moja niliwahi kukueleza maneno haya I know you are so ugly with me even to reply ma sms, am so happy to hear from u. Angel the world is full of surprise, and the world is so big when u have nothing to do with it and very small when u have a lot to do with it. The truth is we don't only exist when we are near; am trying 2 make the world of ourselves is not that simple especial at this moment at the moment am living in the world of incubation. Soon after I will not and that is the time I will never never do the mistakes I did before, and I promise if u give me the chance and bear with me for a meantime I will make you the happy girl in our entire life. Ma love life is useless without you by ma side, you are the only gal who won ma heart, plz don't let the word love loose meaning in ma life, u are the only one who ever loved me truly, and understood ma feelings. am sorry 4 everything wrong that has ever happed, and the time I failed u. Angel it's never late until it's late, I can't move on without you by ma side. I will always love you until z world is over 4 me I will wait until am 100 year old from now. If I get the ability I will travel million miles looking for your love. Ni maneno ambayo nina imani yalitoka moyoni mwangu na the way I feel kwako kuna umuhimu wa kuyafanyia kazi. Angel always nimekuwa nikisema sorry lakini plz I beg you to take that as a special sorry kwani I know what am I trying to avoid.
Angel ma love najua nimekufumba kwa muda mrefu toka ulipoanza kusoma ujumbe huu lakini sina jinsi. Nashukuru kwamba umekuwa ukinielewa pale ninapokwambia kuwa kuna kitu flani kimetokea, nashukuru sana kwa moyo huo ambao ulinijengea mimi kuona wewe ni mwanamke shupavu na ambaye anatakiwa kuigwa.
Angel kwa muda sasa nimekuwa natafakari kwa kina mapenzi yako yote kwangu, na kubaini hisia zako za upendo wa dhati kwangu na uenda wewe ndiyo mke niliyemkosa tokea kuwepo maisha yangu.
Lakini pamoja na hayo yote ni vyema nawe pia ukafanya tathmini yako binafsi kuhusu mimi kwa kuzingatia malengo na matarajio yako ya maisha, uliyojiwekea na kuainisha kama mimi nimeishafuzu kuwa chaguo lako pekee la mume umtakaye maishani, kwenye maisha ambayo huwa hayatabiriki kwani yanaweza kuwa ya raha au kinyume chake kitu ambacho nina imani wewe hukuangalia nina nini na wala niko wapi ulinipenda kuliko inavyoweza kufikirika ila nakuhakikishia kuwa na mimi nilikupenda na nakupenda siwezi kuficha kwa mwenyezi mungu maana anajua hilo.
Angel maisha ya ndoa au ya mahusiano kabla ya ndoa yanahitaji uvumilivu wa hali ya juu na kuaminiana kusiko na kipimo. Nasema haya yote, kutokana na uzoefu wangu kuhusu maisha ya mahusiano na walio karibu yangu kunieleza juu ya ndoa kwa jamii ya dunia tunamoishi. Darling watu wengi hujihusisha na mapenzi au hufunga ndoa kukidhi mchakato wa maisha tu. Ndoa au mahusiano ya aina hii ni mengi mno, na ndoa za aina hiyo ndio zimekuwa chanzo cha maangamizi ya duniani. Zimekuwa chimbuko la watoto wa mitaani, malaya, walevi wa kupindukia, kukosa dira na hatimaye kusababisha vifo vyenye machungu, lakini, naamini hali hii ingeweza kuepukika, iwapo jamii ya wanandoa wangelifikia hatua ya kuoana kama hitajiko la moyo. Wakaongozwa na upendo, wakanuia kuaminiana, kuvumiliana kuheshimiana na kushauriana. Wakakwepa kabisa kuiga mila zisizo zao na wakaishi maisha ya uwazi na kuambizana ukweli. Maisha ya ndoa au mahusiano ya namna hiyo yangeweza kukidhi maana halisi ya ndoa.
Angel ndoto zangu zikitawaliwa na msingi Imara wa upendo wa ukweli ambao tumefanikiwa kuujenga. Angel am sorry kwa maneno ambayo nayaandika najua ni maneno ambayo kutokana na upendo wako kwangu najua yanakuuma kama yanavyoniuma mimi. Angel umejua mengi kutoka kwangu na mimi nimejua mengi kutoka kwako, sipendi tuyakumbuke yale Mabaya kama yapo (kwa upande wangu) najua yapo ila kwako hakuna naomba uyasaheme kama ulivyowahi kuniahidi kuwa samehe na sahau (Forgive and forget).
Angel wenzetu wanapenda kusema kuwa The captivating beauty and uniqueness of being a human being the truth of the matter is that once you have realized your error and learnt from it, you become completely changed. Angel nimefanya ujinga kwa muda mrefu na ni kitu ambacho nimekuwa nikikuficha lakini nimeamua kukwambia kwa sababu nakupenda na sioni kwa nini nisikwambie iwapo na wewe unanipenda. Angel una muda mrefu sana na mimi nadhani ni mwaka wa nne sasa tumeuanza. Na toka kipindi hicho nimekueleza mengi kama nilivyosema hapo juu lakini when I think of what I did, I feel shame and pain on me Angel. And when I turned away from you whenever there were hard times, how can I still be with you? Angel my Baby it breaks my heart to think that loving each other is not easy to do.
It has always been hard for me to find the gut to break to you my nut shell of the secret I have always hidden from you. But at the height of all, I have judged it expedient for me to clear your doubt about my life. In fact at the moment you have been fully informed about my fiancée though many times I never admitted the truth. It was hard for me to splash it at such an early moment when I could not exist without you. And knowing the obvious consequence of telling you all about our affairs, that it could put an end between you and me, I decided to continue playing all possible games for you to stay around me. In fact I am grateful for those precious moments we spend together charting, talking, romancing, kissing and the others but the sweetest one is your virgin. I really enjoyed even though all these never affected the extent to which I loved my fiancée and given what she means to me, hardly can I wait any more to tell you that SHE IS THE ONE and the only one even I can not think of any substitute, she is enough for me. Please I dont mean to hurt you by this, but its for our own good, because me to pretend that I love you yet I dont mean it. It makes no sense to me, while to you it may but a little. Dear this should not break our casual friendship because when I recall what we were to each other, I hold you with reasonable value and respect. Wherever and whenever, you will be, I promise you never to forget the beautiful, sweetie things we shared in our relationship. My fiancée is not so superior to other girls as you knows her or may be to you but my heart has loved her and am completely convinced not a single regret will ever cross over affair. She has been introduced to my family and I too been introduced to hers, any silly Idea can only bring shame to our beloved family and family members.
Sweetie, if you can say, I forgive you I will even hold you as a special woman among the women. I am guilty of hurting, but please am on my bended knees, forgive me for all this hurt and because of you, I will never hurt any one the way I have done to you for your sake.
Angel its ma sincere hope that you read this letter. You know I've tried every other thing to tell you how I feel about that issue but in vain: "I love you." I'm doing this to avoid you being embarrassed. I can say I'm not 100% sure you feel the same way as I do, but I know that existed in the past. However, I believe, my love, that if by coincidence you read this, you know I am saying this to you. I love you and always will. I can't help but tell you this.
Hope to hear from you. Angel I remain yours as long as you truly forgive me from your bottom of your HEART.
Forgive me please
MAY GOD BLESS YOU,
****