A gift called Life: My Journey from Addiction to Recovery

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A Gift Called Life: My Journey From Heroin Addiction To Recovery
Joining a rehab was the best decision I ever took.

I had always said that I would never use drugs. Looking back, I did everything I said I wouldn’t do. The first time I used drugs, I started with marijuana. I didn’t like it, but I got used to it. I didn’t feel cool if I didn’t use it. I had a good job then; it was “the place” to work when I left high school.

In 2014, I postponed my 3rd year of studying Bachelor’s Degree in Law (LL.B). For me, just landing that job in a tourism company was fortunate. One day, I was hanging out at the pool hall before work. I started to feel tired, and someone said, “Try some of this. It will help you stay awake at work tonight.”

I didn’t even ask what it was; I just opened my mouth. Within twenty minutes, I felt like a new person. I could talk to people I was normally afraid of. I felt better than them. I started to take about ten valium pills a day. My logic was, “If just two made me feel so good, why not try ten?” It worked! But after six months, I started to miss work. I lost weight. My hair started to fall out, and my teeth started to hurt.

One day a close friend said, “Hey, try some of this; you shoot it in your arm.” Once again, I said to myself that I’d never do that. But about one hour later, I tried it. From that day on, I was in love with it. I never cheated on it. If it said jump, I would jump. I quit my job because something like this was too good to miss. I always wanted to forget my problems, and with heroin, I could. It always fixed me up. It cost a lot, so I did it only when I had the money.

Selling heroin

When I started selling heroin, I got ripped off a few times. I remember saying, “Boy, are those guys in bad shape when they rip off their friends?” Well, six months later, I started ripping them off. I always wanted people to come to me for answers. I liked that power. So when I got my social security fund and tax return check, I bought some heroin and sold all of it—but saved one shot for me.

It sold fast; I made quick money and got a free high. I felt like a king, and, mind you, my name is David, and I had control! Everyone came to me for heroin because I dropped the price, and there were few dealers in Arusha.

‘I asked God to come into my life and take some of the pain away.’-David
When all the other people had shot their supplies, I was the only one holding them. Then I raised the price and started using more than I was selling. I didn’t want to do that, but I had no choice. I didn’t know then because I thought I was handling it OK. I lived at Kijenge Juu ward in Arusha at the time.

One day, the man I got my drugs from asked if I would take a chance and go to Tanga with him to purchase some heroin. My answer was, “Sure, why not?” We could have been busted getting on the Tashrif Bus to return home.

I had brought some with me and wrapped it in foil. When we went through the ticketing office, some police officers were conducting special drug operations. They didn’t check me. I got away that time; I was lucky.

Troubles with police

We came back, and my luck ran out. I got busted for a series of crimes consisting of six charges. This was my first time in police remand, and I was afraid of everything I heard from the streets about Arusha Central Police remand and its thugs, or nyapara as we call them.

A lot of it was true, and some of it wasn’t. That didn’t make me any less afraid. I stayed for one week there before I was bailed out. Two months later, I got busted for possession of a quarter kilogram of heroin and returned to remand.

Again, I stayed for a week and was bailed out. I had started to rip off everyone to supply my habit: family, friends, and strangers. I knew I was going to jail this time, so I just gave up.

When I got out, I promised to limit my heroin use to the weekends. I didn’t know anything about addiction. Little did I know it was the very first fix that started me. Almost everyone I knew went to jail for five or ten years, died from an overdose or was an addict. Consequently, I was led right back to the streets. In only two weeks, I was worse than before I started again.

READ MORE: Two Tanzanian Women Arrested in India for Possessing Drugs

My back was against the wall, and I was tired of living the way I did. Even though I didn’t want to stop using heroin, I went to the rehabilitation centre. I stayed there for 90 days as prescribed in the substance treatment programs.

Journey to recovery

Looking back, this was the best thing that ever happened to me. Before I got there, I believed once an addict, always an addict; I’d never be able to stop. At rehab, they showed me a new way of life, a way to cope with being an addict. I decided to move to the area.

There were four Narcotics Anonymous meetings each week, and I went to all of them. Narcotics Anonymous, often shortened as NA, are programs designed to help those suffering from addiction through recovery and to spread the message that recovery is possible. It was established in response to the success of Alcoholics Anonymous.

‘My sponsor suggested working 12 Steps, and when your knees knock, kneel’
While at the rehab, I also got a sponsor and attended many discussion meetings. It helped me to a degree, but I only felt strong at a meeting or after one. Before the meetings, I was always thinking about getting high.

This feeling lasted for about six months. Then some good things started to happen to me. They asked me to speak at a meeting that night. It made me feel good about what I was doing. I started to help start new meetings and help people with substance abuse and alcohol.

Then I fell in love. Looking back, I was in heat. This new life and everything in it was a new ball game. Now, I not only had to deal with myself but with someone else, too. I returned home one day, and my fiancé said, “Get out! I don’t love you anymore!” I felt like someone had put a knife into my heart and turned it around a few times.

With no possible reconciliation, I leaned on a few people to get me through this adjustment. My sponsor suggested working 12 Steps, and when your knees knock, kneel. Needless to say, I spent a lot of time on my knees. I also relied on Narcotics Anonymous literature because there were no Narcotics Anonymous meetings.

God did

I asked God to come into my life and take some of the pain away. He did. My life became a lot better and easier to bear after that. A while later, I started to date the disc jockey (DJ) from the local radio station we broadcasted once. We had a lot of fun together. We went to the Third East Africa Convention in Mombasa, where she was a DJ.

We started to make plans for our marriage. As most normal relationships go, we fought on the phone one night. But a real shock came the next day when her mother called to tell me she had been killed in a car accident that night. I felt like killing myself. I knew the pain was coming, which I didn’t want to feel.

I didn’t want to turn to drugs either because I knew that was not the answer. I called my friend and just started crying. He came over to my place and said, “Just tell me you didn’t get high.” Somehow I knew everything would be alright, and I guess out of relief, I started to laugh.

I continued to rely on Anonymous Narcotics meetings even more. I went to more meetings and talked about it, and before I knew it, the pain was easing, and I was handling it without using drugs. I asked God to come into my heart, and I thanked Him for putting her briefly into my life. Now I know that everything I have is only borrowed from God.

I am currently working on my second to third clean and serene year. My life is a lot better now today than it has ever been. I am happy, and I feel good about myself. I still go to meetings to boost my recovery. It helps to be in contact with people with the same problem as me, addiction. All my friends are through Narcotics Anonymous. Recovery is the new high to me.

Narcotics Anonymous saved my life! Narcotics Anonymous is my life!

David Eliace is the founder of Youth Dignity Forum, a non-governmental organisation working to transform informal settlements into economically stable and sustainable communities.

 

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A Gift Called Life: My Journey From Heroin Addiction To Recovery
Joining a rehab was the best decision I ever took.

I had always said that I would never use drugs. Looking back, I did everything I said I wouldn’t do. The first time I used drugs, I started with marijuana. I didn’t like it, but I got used to it. I didn’t feel cool if I didn’t use it. I had a good job then; it was “the place” to work when I left high school.

In 2014, I postponed my 3rd year of studying Bachelor’s Degree in Law (LL.B). For me, just landing that job in a tourism company was fortunate. One day, I was hanging out at the pool hall before work. I started to feel tired, and someone said, “Try some of this. It will help you stay awake at work tonight.”

I didn’t even ask what it was; I just opened my mouth. Within twenty minutes, I felt like a new person. I could talk to people I was normally afraid of. I felt better than them. I started to take about ten valium pills a day. My logic was, “If just two made me feel so good, why not try ten?” It worked! But after six months, I started to miss work. I lost weight. My hair started to fall out, and my teeth started to hurt.

One day a close friend said, “Hey, try some of this; you shoot it in your arm.” Once again, I said to myself that I’d never do that. But about one hour later, I tried it. From that day on, I was in love with it. I never cheated on it. If it said jump, I would jump. I quit my job because something like this was too good to miss. I always wanted to forget my problems, and with heroin, I could. It always fixed me up. It cost a lot, so I did it only when I had the money.

Selling heroin

When I started selling heroin, I got ripped off a few times. I remember saying, “Boy, are those guys in bad shape when they rip off their friends?” Well, six months later, I started ripping them off. I always wanted people to come to me for answers. I liked that power. So when I got my social security fund and tax return check, I bought some heroin and sold all of it—but saved one shot for me.

It sold fast; I made quick money and got a free high. I felt like a king, and, mind you, my name is David, and I had control! Everyone came to me for heroin because I dropped the price, and there were few dealers in Arusha.

‘I asked God to come into my life and take some of the pain away.’-David
When all the other people had shot their supplies, I was the only one holding them. Then I raised the price and started using more than I was selling. I didn’t want to do that, but I had no choice. I didn’t know then because I thought I was handling it OK. I lived at Kijenge Juu ward in Arusha at the time.

One day, the man I got my drugs from asked if I would take a chance and go to Tanga with him to purchase some heroin. My answer was, “Sure, why not?” We could have been busted getting on the Tashrif Bus to return home.

I had brought some with me and wrapped it in foil. When we went through the ticketing office, some police officers were conducting special drug operations. They didn’t check me. I got away that time; I was lucky.

Troubles with police

We came back, and my luck ran out. I got busted for a series of crimes consisting of six charges. This was my first time in police remand, and I was afraid of everything I heard from the streets about Arusha Central Police remand and its thugs, or nyapara as we call them.

A lot of it was true, and some of it wasn’t. That didn’t make me any less afraid. I stayed for one week there before I was bailed out. Two months later, I got busted for possession of a quarter kilogram of heroin and returned to remand.

Again, I stayed for a week and was bailed out. I had started to rip off everyone to supply my habit: family, friends, and strangers. I knew I was going to jail this time, so I just gave up.

When I got out, I promised to limit my heroin use to the weekends. I didn’t know anything about addiction. Little did I know it was the very first fix that started me. Almost everyone I knew went to jail for five or ten years, died from an overdose or was an addict. Consequently, I was led right back to the streets. In only two weeks, I was worse than before I started again.

READ MORE: Two Tanzanian Women Arrested in India for Possessing Drugs

My back was against the wall, and I was tired of living the way I did. Even though I didn’t want to stop using heroin, I went to the rehabilitation centre. I stayed there for 90 days as prescribed in the substance treatment programs.

Journey to recovery

Looking back, this was the best thing that ever happened to me. Before I got there, I believed once an addict, always an addict; I’d never be able to stop. At rehab, they showed me a new way of life, a way to cope with being an addict. I decided to move to the area.

There were four Narcotics Anonymous meetings each week, and I went to all of them. Narcotics Anonymous, often shortened as NA, are programs designed to help those suffering from addiction through recovery and to spread the message that recovery is possible. It was established in response to the success of Alcoholics Anonymous.

‘My sponsor suggested working 12 Steps, and when your knees knock, kneel’
While at the rehab, I also got a sponsor and attended many discussion meetings. It helped me to a degree, but I only felt strong at a meeting or after one. Before the meetings, I was always thinking about getting high.

This feeling lasted for about six months. Then some good things started to happen to me. They asked me to speak at a meeting that night. It made me feel good about what I was doing. I started to help start new meetings and help people with substance abuse and alcohol.

Then I fell in love. Looking back, I was in heat. This new life and everything in it was a new ball game. Now, I not only had to deal with myself but with someone else, too. I returned home one day, and my fiancé said, “Get out! I don’t love you anymore!” I felt like someone had put a knife into my heart and turned it around a few times.

With no possible reconciliation, I leaned on a few people to get me through this adjustment. My sponsor suggested working 12 Steps, and when your knees knock, kneel. Needless to say, I spent a lot of time on my knees. I also relied on Narcotics Anonymous literature because there were no Narcotics Anonymous meetings.

God did

I asked God to come into my life and take some of the pain away. He did. My life became a lot better and easier to bear after that. A while later, I started to date the disc jockey (DJ) from the local radio station we broadcasted once. We had a lot of fun together. We went to the Third East Africa Convention in Mombasa, where she was a DJ.

We started to make plans for our marriage. As most normal relationships go, we fought on the phone one night. But a real shock came the next day when her mother called to tell me she had been killed in a car accident that night. I felt like killing myself. I knew the pain was coming, which I didn’t want to feel.

I didn’t want to turn to drugs either because I knew that was not the answer. I called my friend and just started crying. He came over to my place and said, “Just tell me you didn’t get high.” Somehow I knew everything would be alright, and I guess out of relief, I started to laugh.

I continued to rely on Anonymous Narcotics meetings even more. I went to more meetings and talked about it, and before I knew it, the pain was easing, and I was handling it without using drugs. I asked God to come into my heart, and I thanked Him for putting her briefly into my life. Now I know that everything I have is only borrowed from God.

I am currently working on my second to third clean and serene year. My life is a lot better now today than it has ever been. I am happy, and I feel good about myself. I still go to meetings to boost my recovery. It helps to be in contact with people with the same problem as me, addiction. All my friends are through Narcotics Anonymous. Recovery is the new high to me.

Narcotics Anonymous saved my life! Narcotics Anonymous is my life!

David Eliace is the founder of Youth Dignity Forum, a non-governmental organisation working to transform informal settlements into economically stable and sustainable communities.

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Safari Yangu Kutoka kwa Uraibu wa Heroin Hadi Kupona Kujiunga na ukarabati ulikuwa uamuzi bora zaidi ambao nimewahi kuchukua. Sikuzote nilisema kwamba sitawahi kutumia dawa za kulevya. Nikitazama nyuma, nilifanya kila kitu nilichosema singefanya. Mara ya kwanza nilipotumia dawa za kulevya, nilianza na bangi. Sikuipenda, lakini niliizoea. Sikujisikia vizuri ikiwa sikuitumia.

Nilikuwa na kazi nzuri basi; palikuwa “mahali” pa kufanya kazi nilipoacha shule ya upili. Mnamo 2014, niliahirisha mwaka wangu wa 3 wa kusomea Shahada ya Kwanza ya Sheria (LL.B). Kwangu mimi, kupata tu kazi hiyo katika kampuni ya utalii ilikuwa bahati. Siku moja, nilikuwa nikibarizi kwenye ukumbi wa bwawa kabla ya kazi. Nilianza kuhisi uchovu, na mtu fulani akasema, “Jaribu baadhi ya haya. Itakusaidia kukesha kazini usiku wa leo.” Sikuuliza hata ni nini; Nilifungua mdomo tu. Ndani ya dakika ishirini, nilihisi kama mtu mpya. Ningeweza kuzungumza na watu ambao kwa kawaida niliwaogopa.

Nilihisi bora kuliko wao. Nilianza kutumia vidonge kumi hivi vya valium kwa siku. Mantiki yangu ilikuwa, “Ikiwa ni wawili tu walinifanya nijisikie vizuri sana, kwa nini nisijaribu kumi?” Ilifanya kazi! Lakini baada ya miezi sita, nilianza kukosa kazi. Nilipunguza uzito. Nywele zangu zilianza kukatika, na meno yangu yakaanza kuuma. Siku moja rafiki wa karibu alisema, “Hey, jaribu baadhi ya haya; unampiga risasi mkononi mwako.” Kwa mara nyingine tena, nilijiambia kwamba sitawahi kufanya hivyo.

Lakini kama saa moja baadaye, nilijaribu. Kuanzia siku hiyo, nilikuwa nikiipenda. Sikuwahi kudanganya. Ingesema ruka, ningeruka. Niliacha kazi yangu kwa sababu kitu kama hiki kilikuwa kizuri sana kukosa. Sikuzote nilitaka kusahau matatizo yangu, na kwa heroini, ningeweza. Ilinirekebisha kila wakati. Iligharimu sana, kwa hivyo nilifanya tu wakati nilikuwa na pesa. Kuuza heroini Nilipoanza kuuza heroini, niliraruliwa mara chache. Nakumbuka nikisema, “Kijana, je, watu hao wana hali mbaya wanaporarua marafiki zao?” Kweli, miezi sita baadaye, nilianza kuziondoa. Siku zote nilitaka watu waje kwangu kwa majibu.

Nilipenda nguvu hiyo. Kwa hiyo nilipopata hazina yangu ya hifadhi ya jamii na hundi ya malipo ya kodi, nilinunua heroini na kuziuza zote—lakini nilihifadhi risasi moja. Iliuzwa haraka; Nilipata pesa haraka na kupata juu bure. Nilihisi kama mfalme, na, kumbuka, jina langu ni Daudi, na nilikuwa na udhibiti! Kila mtu alikuja kwangu kwa heroin kwa sababu nilipunguza bei, na kulikuwa na wafanyabiashara wachache huko Arusha. ‘Nilimwomba Mungu aje maishani mwangu na kuniondolea baadhi ya maumivu.’-David Wakati watu wengine wote walikuwa wamepiga risasi vifaa vyao, mimi peke yangu ndiye niliyewashikilia.

Kisha nilipandisha bei na kuanza kutumia zaidi ya nilivyokuwa nikiuza. Sikutaka kufanya hivyo, lakini sikuwa na chaguo. Sikujua wakati huo kwa sababu nilifikiri nilikuwa nikiishughulikia sawa. Wakati huo nilikuwa naishi kata ya Kijenge Juu Arusha. Siku moja, mtu niliyemnunulia dawa aliniuliza kama ningechukua nafasi na kwenda naye Tanga kununua heroini. Jibu langu lilikuwa, "Kweli, kwa nini?" Tungeweza kupasuliwa tukipanda Basi la Tashrif kurudi nyumbani. Nilikuwa nimeleta na mimi na kuifunga kwa foil. Tulipopitia ofisi ya tikiti, baadhi ya maafisa wa polisi walikuwa wakiendesha operesheni maalum ya dawa za kulevya. Hawakunichunguza. Niliondoka wakati huo; Nilikuwa na bahati. Shida na polisi Tulirudi, na bahati yangu ikaisha. Nilihukumiwa kwa msururu wa uhalifu uliojumuisha mashtaka sita. Hii ilikuwa mara yangu ya kwanza kuwekwa rumande ya polisi, na niliogopa kila nilichosikia mitaani kuhusu rumande ya Polisi Arusha na majambazi wake, au nyapara tunavyowaita. Mengi yalikuwa ya kweli, na mengine hayakuwa kweli. Hilo halikunifanya nipunguze woga. Nilikaa hapo kwa muda wa wiki moja kabla sijapewa dhamana. Miezi miwili baadaye, nilipigwa risasi kwa kupatikana na robo kilo ya heroini na nikarudi rumande. Tena, nilikaa kwa wiki moja na nikapewa dhamana. Nilikuwa nimeanza kupora kila mtu ili kusambaza tabia yangu: familia, marafiki, na wageni.

Nilijua nitaenda jela wakati huu, kwa hivyo nilikata tamaa. Nilipotoka, niliahidi kupunguza matumizi yangu ya heroini hadi wikendi. Sikujua chochote kuhusu uraibu. Sikujua ilikuwa ni marekebisho ya kwanza kabisa ambayo yalinianza. Karibu kila mtu niliyemjua alienda jela kwa miaka mitano au kumi, alikufa kutokana na matumizi ya kupita kiasi au alikuwa mraibu. Kwa hiyo, niliongozwa kurudi mitaani. Katika wiki mbili tu, nilikuwa mbaya zaidi kuliko kabla ya kuanza tena.


Ingawa sikutaka kuacha kutumia heroini, nilienda kwenye kituo cha kurekebisha tabia. Nilikaa huko kwa siku 90 kama ilivyoagizwa katika programu za matibabu ya dutu.

Safari ya kupona

Nikitazama nyuma, hili lilikuwa jambo bora zaidi ambalo limewahi kunipata. Kabla sijafika huko, niliamini mara moja mraibu, daima mraibu; Nisingeweza kamwe kuacha. Katika rehab, walinionyesha njia mpya ya maisha, njia ya kukabiliana na kuwa mraibu. Niliamua kuhamia eneo hilo.

Kulikuwa na mikutano minne ya Madawa ya Kulevya kila juma, na niliihudhuria yote. Dawa za Kulevya Asiyejulikana, ambazo mara nyingi hufupishwa kama NA, ni programu zilizoundwa ili kuwasaidia wale wanaokabiliwa na uraibu kupitia kupona na kueneza ujumbe kwamba kupona kunawezekana. Ilianzishwa ili kukabiliana na mafanikio ya Alcoholics Anonymous.

'Mfadhili wangu alipendekeza kufanya kazi kwa Hatua 12, na magoti yako yanapogonga, piga magoti'
Nikiwa kwenye rehab, pia nilipata mfadhili na nilihudhuria mikutano mingi ya majadiliano. Ilinisaidia kwa kiwango fulani, lakini nilihisi kuwa na nguvu kwenye mkutano au baada ya mkutano mmoja tu. Kabla ya mikutano, sikuzote nilikuwa nikifikiria kupata juu.

Hisia hii ilidumu kwa karibu miezi sita. Kisha mambo mazuri yakaanza kunitokea. Waliniomba nizungumze kwenye mkutano usiku huo. Ilinifanya nijisikie vizuri kuhusu nilichokuwa nikifanya. Nilianza kusaidia kuanzisha mikutano mipya na kuwasaidia watu walio na matumizi mabaya ya dawa za kulevya na vileo.

Kisha nikaanguka kwa upendo. Kuangalia nyuma, nilikuwa katika joto. Maisha haya mapya na kila kitu ndani yake ulikuwa mchezo mpya wa mpira. Sasa, sikulazimika kushughulika na mimi tu bali na mtu mwingine pia. Nilirudi nyumbani siku moja, na mchumba wangu akasema, “Ondoka! sikupendi tena!” Nilihisi kama kuna mtu ameweka kisu moyoni mwangu na kukigeuza mara kadhaa.

Bila upatanisho unaowezekana, niliegemea watu wachache kunipitisha kwenye marekebisho haya. Mfadhili wangu alipendekeza kufanya kazi Hatua 12, na magoti yako yanapogonga, piga magoti. Bila kusema, nilitumia muda mwingi kwa magoti yangu. Pia nilitegemea fasihi za Madawa ya Kulevya kwa sababu hakukuwa na mikutano ya Wasiojulikana ya Narcotics.

Mungu alifanya

Nilimwomba Mungu aje maishani mwangu na kuniondolea baadhi ya maumivu. Alifanya. Maisha yangu yakawa bora na rahisi kuvumilia baada ya hapo. Muda kidogo baadaye, nilianza kuchumbiana na mchezaji wa diski (DJ) kutoka kituo cha redio cha ndani tulichotangaza mara moja. Tulikuwa na furaha nyingi pamoja. Tulienda kwenye Kongamano la Tatu la Afrika Mashariki huko Mombasa, ambako alikuwa DJ.

Tulianza kupanga mipango ya ndoa yetu. Mahusiano mengi ya kawaida yanapoendelea, tulipigana kwenye simu usiku mmoja. Lakini mshtuko wa kweli ulikuja siku iliyofuata mama yake aliponipigia simu kuniambia alikuwa ameuawa katika aksidenti ya gari usiku huo. Nilihisi kujiua. Nilijua maumivu yanakuja, ambayo sikutaka kuyasikia.

Sikutaka kugeukia dawa za kulevya pia kwa sababu nilijua hilo halikuwa jibu. Nilimpigia simu rafiki yangu na kuanza kulia tu. Alikuja kwangu na kusema, "Niambie tu haukupanda juu." Kwa namna fulani nilijua kila kitu kingekuwa sawa, na nadhani kutokana na utulivu, nilianza kucheka.

Niliendelea kutegemea mikutano ya Madawa ya Kulevya isiyojulikana hata zaidi. Nilihudhuria mikutano zaidi na kuzungumza juu yake, na kabla sijajua, maumivu yalikuwa yanapungua, na nilikuwa nikiishughulikia bila kutumia dawa za kulevya. Nilimwomba Mungu aingie moyoni mwangu, na nikamshukuru kwa kumweka kwa muda mfupi maishani mwangu. Sasa najua kuwa kila kitu nilicho nacho nimeazimwa kutoka kwa Mungu tu.

Kwa sasa ninafanyia kazi mwaka wangu wa pili hadi wa tatu wa usafi na utulivu. Maisha yangu leo ni bora zaidi kuliko hapo awali. Nina furaha, na ninajihisi vizuri. Bado ninaenda kwenye mikutano ili nipate nafuu. Inasaidia kuwasiliana na watu walio na shida kama yangu, ulevi. Marafiki zangu wote ni kupitia Narcotics Anonymous. Ahueni ni jambo jipya kwangu.

Dawa za Kulevya Asiyejulikana ziliokoa maisha yangu! Madawa ya Kulevya Anonymous ndio maisha yangu!

David Eliace ni mwanzilishi wa Youth Dignity Forum, asasi isiyo ya kiserikali inayofanya kazi ya kubadilisha makazi yasiyo rasmi kuwa jamii zenye utulivu na endelevu kiuchumi.
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"Madawa yananipa sana kampani ni ahadi ambayo naitunza"

"Nameza kidonge pamoja na lean kisha angalia ni haraka kiasi gani nitapata usingizi"

"Je nitaamka? Tutaona"


Baadaye akaja kusema tena.

"Muda mwingine unapaswa kukubaliana na wewe mwenyewe kuwa unahitaji msaada"

"Nakubali kuwa nahitaji msaada"

"Nahisi siwezi kujiokoa peke yangu"
"Nyakati nyingine natamani hata nijichukue kisha nijivunje ili kuji-reshape"

"Hakuna mtu ambaye amewahi kuhisi maumivu ambayo mimi najihisi"

"Kwa hiyo na share hii na nyie"

"Put it out to the whole world, I ain't embarrassed"

#LLJW

 

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Juice Wrld aliwahi kusema

"Madawa yananipa sana kampani ni ahadi ambayo naitunza"

"Nameza kidonge pamoja na lean kisha angalia ni haraka kiasi gani nitapata usingizi"

"Je nitaamka? Tutaona"


Baadaye akaja kusema tena.

"Muda mwingine unapaswa kukubaliana na wewe mwenyewe kuwa unahitaji msaada"

"Nakubali kuwa nahitaji msaada"

"Nahisi siwezi kujiokoa peke yangu"
"Nyakati nyingine natamani hata nijichukue kisha nijivunje ili kuji-reshape"

"Hakuna mtu ambaye amewahi kuhisi maumivu ambayo mimi najihisi"

"Kwa hiyo na share hii na nyie"

"Put it out to the whole world, I ain't embarrassed"

#LLJW

Shukrani kwa hii. Sijawahi kuisikia.

 

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Zawadi Inayoitwa Maisha:

Safari Yangu Kutoka kwa Uraibu wa Heroin Hadi Kupona Kujiunga na ukarabati ulikuwa uamuzi bora zaidi ambao nimewahi kuchukua. Sikuzote nilisema kwamba sitawahi kutumia dawa za kulevya. Nikitazama nyuma, nilifanya kila kitu nilichosema singefanya. Mara ya kwanza nilipotumia dawa za kulevya, nilianza na bangi. Sikuipenda, lakini niliizoea. Sikujisikia vizuri ikiwa sikuitumia.

Nilikuwa na kazi nzuri basi; palikuwa “mahali” pa kufanya kazi nilipoacha shule ya upili. Mnamo 2014, niliahirisha mwaka wangu wa 3 wa kusomea Shahada ya Kwanza ya Sheria (LL.B). Kwangu mimi, kupata tu kazi hiyo katika kampuni ya utalii ilikuwa bahati. Siku moja, nilikuwa nikibarizi kwenye ukumbi wa bwawa kabla ya kazi. Nilianza kuhisi uchovu, na mtu fulani akasema, “Jaribu baadhi ya haya. Itakusaidia kukesha kazini usiku wa leo.” Sikuuliza hata ni nini; Nilifungua mdomo tu. Ndani ya dakika ishirini, nilihisi kama mtu mpya. Ningeweza kuzungumza na watu ambao kwa kawaida niliwaogopa.

Nilihisi bora kuliko wao. Nilianza kutumia vidonge kumi hivi vya valium kwa siku. Mantiki yangu ilikuwa, “Ikiwa ni wawili tu walinifanya nijisikie vizuri sana, kwa nini nisijaribu kumi?” Ilifanya kazi! Lakini baada ya miezi sita, nilianza kukosa kazi. Nilipunguza uzito. Nywele zangu zilianza kukatika, na meno yangu yakaanza kuuma. Siku moja rafiki wa karibu alisema, “Hey, jaribu baadhi ya haya; unampiga risasi mkononi mwako.” Kwa mara nyingine tena, nilijiambia kwamba sitawahi kufanya hivyo.

Lakini kama saa moja baadaye, nilijaribu. Kuanzia siku hiyo, nilikuwa nikiipenda. Sikuwahi kudanganya. Ingesema ruka, ningeruka. Niliacha kazi yangu kwa sababu kitu kama hiki kilikuwa kizuri sana kukosa. Sikuzote nilitaka kusahau matatizo yangu, na kwa heroini, ningeweza. Ilinirekebisha kila wakati. Iligharimu sana, kwa hivyo nilifanya tu wakati nilikuwa na pesa. Kuuza heroini Nilipoanza kuuza heroini, niliraruliwa mara chache. Nakumbuka nikisema, “Kijana, je, watu hao wana hali mbaya wanaporarua marafiki zao?” Kweli, miezi sita baadaye, nilianza kuziondoa. Siku zote nilitaka watu waje kwangu kwa majibu.

Nilipenda nguvu hiyo. Kwa hiyo nilipopata hazina yangu ya hifadhi ya jamii na hundi ya malipo ya kodi, nilinunua heroini na kuziuza zote—lakini nilihifadhi risasi moja. Iliuzwa haraka; Nilipata pesa haraka na kupata juu bure. Nilihisi kama mfalme, na, kumbuka, jina langu ni Daudi, na nilikuwa na udhibiti! Kila mtu alikuja kwangu kwa heroin kwa sababu nilipunguza bei, na kulikuwa na wafanyabiashara wachache huko Arusha. ‘Nilimwomba Mungu aje maishani mwangu na kuniondolea baadhi ya maumivu.’-David Wakati watu wengine wote walikuwa wamepiga risasi vifaa vyao, mimi peke yangu ndiye niliyewashikilia.

Kisha nilipandisha bei na kuanza kutumia zaidi ya nilivyokuwa nikiuza. Sikutaka kufanya hivyo, lakini sikuwa na chaguo. Sikujua wakati huo kwa sababu nilifikiri nilikuwa nikiishughulikia sawa. Wakati huo nilikuwa naishi kata ya Kijenge Juu Arusha. Siku moja, mtu niliyemnunulia dawa aliniuliza kama ningechukua nafasi na kwenda naye Tanga kununua heroini. Jibu langu lilikuwa, "Kweli, kwa nini?" Tungeweza kupasuliwa tukipanda Basi la Tashrif kurudi nyumbani. Nilikuwa nimeleta na mimi na kuifunga kwa foil. Tulipopitia ofisi ya tikiti, baadhi ya maafisa wa polisi walikuwa wakiendesha operesheni maalum ya dawa za kulevya. Hawakunichunguza. Niliondoka wakati huo; Nilikuwa na bahati. Shida na polisi Tulirudi, na bahati yangu ikaisha. Nilihukumiwa kwa msururu wa uhalifu uliojumuisha mashtaka sita. Hii ilikuwa mara yangu ya kwanza kuwekwa rumande ya polisi, na niliogopa kila nilichosikia mitaani kuhusu rumande ya Polisi Arusha na majambazi wake, au nyapara tunavyowaita. Mengi yalikuwa ya kweli, na mengine hayakuwa kweli. Hilo halikunifanya nipunguze woga. Nilikaa hapo kwa muda wa wiki moja kabla sijapewa dhamana. Miezi miwili baadaye, nilipigwa risasi kwa kupatikana na robo kilo ya heroini na nikarudi rumande. Tena, nilikaa kwa wiki moja na nikapewa dhamana. Nilikuwa nimeanza kupora kila mtu ili kusambaza tabia yangu: familia, marafiki, na wageni.

Nilijua nitaenda jela wakati huu, kwa hivyo nilikata tamaa. Nilipotoka, niliahidi kupunguza matumizi yangu ya heroini hadi wikendi. Sikujua chochote kuhusu uraibu. Sikujua ilikuwa ni marekebisho ya kwanza kabisa ambayo yalinianza. Karibu kila mtu niliyemjua alienda jela kwa miaka mitano au kumi, alikufa kutokana na matumizi ya kupita kiasi au alikuwa mraibu. Kwa hiyo, niliongozwa kurudi mitaani. Katika wiki mbili tu, nilikuwa mbaya zaidi kuliko kabla ya kuanza tena.


Ingawa sikutaka kuacha kutumia heroini, nilienda kwenye kituo cha kurekebisha tabia. Nilikaa huko kwa siku 90 kama ilivyoagizwa katika programu za matibabu ya dutu.

Safari ya kupona

Nikitazama nyuma, hili lilikuwa jambo bora zaidi ambalo limewahi kunipata. Kabla sijafika huko, niliamini mara moja mraibu, daima mraibu; Nisingeweza kamwe kuacha. Katika rehab, walinionyesha njia mpya ya maisha, njia ya kukabiliana na kuwa mraibu. Niliamua kuhamia eneo hilo.

Kulikuwa na mikutano minne ya Madawa ya Kulevya kila juma, na niliihudhuria yote. Dawa za Kulevya Asiyejulikana, ambazo mara nyingi hufupishwa kama NA, ni programu zilizoundwa ili kuwasaidia wale wanaokabiliwa na uraibu kupitia kupona na kueneza ujumbe kwamba kupona kunawezekana. Ilianzishwa ili kukabiliana na mafanikio ya Alcoholics Anonymous.

'Mfadhili wangu alipendekeza kufanya kazi kwa Hatua 12, na magoti yako yanapogonga, piga magoti'
Nikiwa kwenye rehab, pia nilipata mfadhili na nilihudhuria mikutano mingi ya majadiliano. Ilinisaidia kwa kiwango fulani, lakini nilihisi kuwa na nguvu kwenye mkutano au baada ya mkutano mmoja tu. Kabla ya mikutano, sikuzote nilikuwa nikifikiria kupata juu.

Hisia hii ilidumu kwa karibu miezi sita. Kisha mambo mazuri yakaanza kunitokea. Waliniomba nizungumze kwenye mkutano usiku huo. Ilinifanya nijisikie vizuri kuhusu nilichokuwa nikifanya. Nilianza kusaidia kuanzisha mikutano mipya na kuwasaidia watu walio na matumizi mabaya ya dawa za kulevya na vileo.

Kisha nikaanguka kwa upendo. Kuangalia nyuma, nilikuwa katika joto. Maisha haya mapya na kila kitu ndani yake ulikuwa mchezo mpya wa mpira. Sasa, sikulazimika kushughulika na mimi tu bali na mtu mwingine pia. Nilirudi nyumbani siku moja, na mchumba wangu akasema, “Ondoka! sikupendi tena!” Nilihisi kama kuna mtu ameweka kisu moyoni mwangu na kukigeuza mara kadhaa.

Bila upatanisho unaowezekana, niliegemea watu wachache kunipitisha kwenye marekebisho haya. Mfadhili wangu alipendekeza kufanya kazi Hatua 12, na magoti yako yanapogonga, piga magoti. Bila kusema, nilitumia muda mwingi kwa magoti yangu. Pia nilitegemea fasihi za Madawa ya Kulevya kwa sababu hakukuwa na mikutano ya Wasiojulikana ya Narcotics.

Mungu alifanya

Nilimwomba Mungu aje maishani mwangu na kuniondolea baadhi ya maumivu. Alifanya. Maisha yangu yakawa bora na rahisi kuvumilia baada ya hapo. Muda kidogo baadaye, nilianza kuchumbiana na mchezaji wa diski (DJ) kutoka kituo cha redio cha ndani tulichotangaza mara moja. Tulikuwa na furaha nyingi pamoja. Tulienda kwenye Kongamano la Tatu la Afrika Mashariki huko Mombasa, ambako alikuwa DJ.

Tulianza kupanga mipango ya ndoa yetu. Mahusiano mengi ya kawaida yanapoendelea, tulipigana kwenye simu usiku mmoja. Lakini mshtuko wa kweli ulikuja siku iliyofuata mama yake aliponipigia simu kuniambia alikuwa ameuawa katika aksidenti ya gari usiku huo. Nilihisi kujiua. Nilijua maumivu yanakuja, ambayo sikutaka kuyasikia.

Sikutaka kugeukia dawa za kulevya pia kwa sababu nilijua hilo halikuwa jibu. Nilimpigia simu rafiki yangu na kuanza kulia tu. Alikuja kwangu na kusema, "Niambie tu haukupanda juu." Kwa namna fulani nilijua kila kitu kingekuwa sawa, na nadhani kutokana na utulivu, nilianza kucheka.

Niliendelea kutegemea mikutano ya Madawa ya Kulevya isiyojulikana hata zaidi. Nilihudhuria mikutano zaidi na kuzungumza juu yake, na kabla sijajua, maumivu yalikuwa yanapungua, na nilikuwa nikiishughulikia bila kutumia dawa za kulevya. Nilimwomba Mungu aingie moyoni mwangu, na nikamshukuru kwa kumweka kwa muda mfupi maishani mwangu. Sasa najua kuwa kila kitu nilicho nacho nimeazimwa kutoka kwa Mungu tu.

Kwa sasa ninafanyia kazi mwaka wangu wa pili hadi wa tatu wa usafi na utulivu. Maisha yangu leo ni bora zaidi kuliko hapo awali. Nina furaha, na ninajihisi vizuri. Bado ninaenda kwenye mikutano ili nipate nafuu. Inasaidia kuwasiliana na watu walio na shida kama yangu, ulevi. Marafiki zangu wote ni kupitia Narcotics Anonymous. Ahueni ni jambo jipya kwangu.

Dawa za Kulevya Asiyejulikana ziliokoa maisha yangu! Madawa ya Kulevya Anonymous ndio maisha yangu!

David Eliace ni mwanzilishi wa Youth Dignity Forum, asasi isiyo ya kiserikali inayofanya kazi ya kubadilisha makazi yasiyo rasmi kuwa jamii zenye utulivu na endelevu kiuchumi.
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Umetisha sana Prince. Mungu akubariki.🙏

 

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Mkuu una uhakika hutarudia tena???

Imetoka hiyo Kaka. Nina nyenzo za kutokurudia hivyo sipo pekee yangu.

 

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Well done and keep it with you, there is this one say in specific that I adore the most

" If you are brave enough to say goodbye, life will bless you with new hello!"

You've been so brave through pain and joy and life has given you a second chance, remember not everyone get the second chance, and if you do, make a lot out of it

You now have a perfect life don't throw it all away, ever again
I personally wish you all the best on your life endeavor
With regard
FlyingDutchman

 

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Well done and keep it with you, there is this one say in specific that I adore the most

" If you are brave enough to say goodbye, life will bless you with new hello!"

You've been so brave through pain and joy and life has given you a second chance, remember not everyone get the second chance, and if you do, make a lot out of it

You now have a perfect life don't throw it all away, ever again
I personally wish you all the best on your life endeavor
With regard
FlyingDutchman

I appreciate my Brethren. Easy does it.